Happy Birthday Ummy Sayang

Posted by Kaleidoscope on Sunday, February 20, 2011 at 1:18 AM
Dear Ummy,

For the past 7 years we've been together as a husband & wife, you had done your part flawlessly and never failed to satisfy every single things that I had requested for. I know sometimes we had our ups and down, but no matter what come may, our love still growing stronger with the presence of our 2 princesses. I've remembered when the day we officially became husband and wife after the solemnization of our marriage, I felt that I wanted to hold you in my arms straight away just to show how much I love you:P but......I didn't dare to do that because we were in the midst of the family gathering and everybody would be judging me as a freak..Kekeke. I've remembered when we were in the labor room for the 1st time. We've waited since 5.30pm until 11pm in a hope that you could deliver our baby in SVD but when the doc said that you had to be ceasered, I ran downstairs & cried out loud because it was beyond my expectation. It was really hard that time but as soon as the nurse asked me to 'iqamah' our 1st princess, all the hard things were eased and I cried once more when I held our princess in my arms. And I was relief when the nurse said that you were doing fine because I couldn't imagine what it was going be like if you weren't around. Scary.....and yes! I was scared. Alhamdulillah, everything went well after that. And after 5 years expecting for the 2nd one, and there we went through the same situation again. You were in the labor room since 7pm and it was difficult to see you having the contractions all by yourself. I knew the pains were unbearable but I managed to restrain myself not to cry in front of you because I knew how would you react if you saw me cry. I've remembered around 10pm, I went to musolla to perform my pray and I said, 'Ya! Allah. Aku halalkan makan & minum Ummy, aku ampunkan segala dosa2 dia terhadapku. Tolonglah, ya!Allah. Kau permudahkanlah urusan kami ini. Biarlah Ummy dapat bersalin secara normal secepat mungkin dan selamatkanlah kedua2nya'. I went back to the labor room as soon as I had my pray, and then not too long after that, you were about to deliver our 2nd princess. Allah has granted my wish. Alhamdulillah...
Having you in my life is so wonderful and thanks for giving me such a valuable experience as a husband to you and a father to our princesses. Thanks for being there for me. May our love grow stronger than ever, be blessed with lotsa happiness.....until the end of our lives....till death do us part.

Your truly love,


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Blog now open to public!

Posted by Kaleidoscope on Friday, February 18, 2011 at 12:09 PM
I was about to delete this blog account but due to someone who had indirectly inspired me to open it back, so here I am.....now officially re-opened this blog back to the public.
I haven't update this blurdy blog quiet sometimes....However, there are so many things to tell, so little time to do that.


I'll see how......

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It kept me from behind..

Posted by Kaleidoscope on Tuesday, May 18, 2010 at 11:00 AM
I realized that I haven't had a chance to update my blog; not because that I was extremely busy but I was clueless & didn't know what to write. Being a 'lurus bendul' in some certain part of your mundane chores sometimes could lead you to nothing, but sometimes could give you a huge impact. Why am I saying this? It happened to me, literally. People might think that this kind of attitude means you are ignorance and don't care about others. But how many of them do think like the way I think? None. I was helping this fella to overcome his some sort of rejection from the one that he loved most without facing the fact that she dumped him because she didn't want him anymore. My other BFF and I were helping this fella to make him realized that she's not worth to die for after put some considerations on her attitude and the way she had treated him. As the fella claimed that this is his first love and would not jump into conclusion or move on UNTIL this women a.k.a player throw the break up word to his face; he would rather waiting and waiting in a way that his pure and divine love will lead her back to him. We all knew that it won't be happened and the worst part is that this fella seemingly being blindfolded by her fake love. Why can't this fella open up his mind and see the game that this women had put him into? If we can see it, why can't you? Why must you put your devotion onto her while on the other hand you should know that all these are just your own infatuation? I really don't understand why you have become like this! It could be either me who 'lurus bendul' to understand your so-called magnificent love or it is just you who being so ignorance and prefer to solve your own complication in a hard way. It always kept me from behind to say this to you, so I'm taking this opportunity to write it down here. I don't think I would be able to assist you any further in your tragic love story. I know, you know,we know who is she to you and how she play this ridiculous love game and yet you are one of the victims who had been trapped into this crap, but since you said you wanted some certainty before you could leave all these behind, I won't stop you from doing it. It is your life after all, and I am nothing more than a friend who thought that by stopping you and make you realize how physco she is will safe your soul and energy. But I guess I was wrong. You are up on your own now. I'm officially withdrawing myself as a counselor to your love life. You and I? We still could be friend, no worries. It just that I had enough of that miserable physco pathetic troublemaker...which is that bitch.

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Tajul Muluk - between myth, believe & culture

Posted by Kaleidoscope on Tuesday, March 30, 2010 at 11:35 AM
I have develop some services that allow public to explore the world of 'Tajul Muluk'. For those who have not known what is Tajul Muluk or never heard of it, Tajul Muluk or Bintang 12 is an ancient prophecy based on some researches done by the generations before us. And those notes, results and any sources that they had were gathered, compiled and being used in additions from ancient Greek's prophecy.
Tajul Muluk or Bintang 12 was synonym with ancient astrology especially in Malay society whereby they analyze humans characters, attitudes, etiquette, loves and daily life's activities. Logically, Malay society still practice their customs and culture, order elders and guidelines. But the truth is, this customs and culture still relevant to be applied in our daily lives. That's why I have come up with this kind of service, not to let the public obsess with it and forget HE IS THE GREATEST and let their Aqidah ruins by themselves BUT to educate public that this service might also have something the truth behind it. All they have to do is to take the prophecy as their light reading and not to rely on it 100%. At least, this is how I see it.

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Taste of Vengeance

Posted by Kaleidoscope on at 10:31 AM
I dare not to say some nasty stuffs anymore because my beloved mom's had asked me not to before she went to perform her Umra' few days ago. So, I'm in a midst of controlling myself not to lash out, not to curse or even not to hold a grudge towards etc etc. Having said all that, I feel that my life is pretty much heading to a correct path; much better than what I've become. You (yes!! You readers) don't have any idea what I have gone through these few weeks ago, how miserable & pathetic my life had become,just because I desired those things that I truly wanted to make it as my own belonging. But some irresponsible parties had made my desire turned dead. They have thrown away my desire. My dream was nothing to them even though they knew how important for me to get that thing. I was one step closer to own that thing. It was so close; as close as two people could get. But when I think about it over and over again, I realize it was a matter of 'rezki'. Sometimes no matter how hard we try, IF there's no 'rezki', we won't get what we want. I was devastated at first and keep blaming everyone's who had involved; especially the parties that I've mentioned earlier. If only they could tell me earlier about my status, this thing had never be done and I didn't have to put my expectation too high. Despite of all these learning experience, I knew that HE just wanted to test my patience and see how I handle my life throughout these obstacles. And thank to HIM, HE IS THE GREATEST know that I know what is the sweetness behind all these bitterness. I've remembered what HE had quoted in Surah Al- Insyirah. And silly me not to realize that everything that happens must have it reasons. During these obstacles, I have also received a very good news. But since it is still early to announce it over here, I'd ask for everyone's apology to let me reserve the news.

I'm now in the middle of waiting for my dream to come true. This time there is no more 3rd parties involve. Just me and me and me and me and me.........Wish me luck!

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I hate waiting!!!!!

Posted by Kaleidoscope on Wednesday, March 17, 2010 at 10:46 AM
For over 3-4 weeks, I have been hunting for this 'thing' to fulfill my desire & lust. To own and run my fingers on it is the only thing I would do if it happens to be mine. But easier said than done. The waiting period somehow or rather is killing me, deep inside and nothing I could do to surpass the time. If only I have the authority to quicken the process of this hire and purchase. So lame when we had to deal with this kind of community; which we thought it would be much easier to deal with due to our same believe & skin, rather than dealing with our opposite. Since I have experienced both, to be franked I would prefer the opposite side because they never forget their integrity when doing their business and they definitely know how to run a business. I just don't want to laid back like them but even though I'm not rushing to own it, but wouldn't it be nice to have it as soon as possible? And why can't they contact me to update or even ask my details if that's the only thing their lack of? I have submitted my docs since last week because I don't want to be burdened with the new interest rate and they have known about it. Why should a customer/buyer like me who had to call and check for the updates while it was suppose to be their jobs to do so? Aihh...I was so devastated and the only song that kept humming in my head was this -- I can't fight this feeling anymore - Reo Speedwagon. But i prefer the Glee version:P

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Patah Hati - Allahyarham Sudirman Hj Arshad

Posted by Kaleidoscope on Friday, March 5, 2010 at 11:07 AM

I was so taken aback by this song this morning. Not that I'm having a bad day neither frustrated with that 'thing' that had kept me waiting BUT it is more to my heart preference. Something that I had to deal with...like it or not.

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Simple thought!

Posted by Kaleidoscope on Monday, February 8, 2010 at 4:46 PM
Now, I have realized....

The more you let yourself go deeper, the more you get the


exposure. Sometimes the unnecessary thingy won't do you any harm IF you know

what's what.

But it will harms you IF you don't know or to naive to know that unnecessary


will try to get

the best of you. See what I mean? :)

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