It's a kaleidoscopic mind - full of colors but never colorless

Happy Birthday Ummy Sayang

2011-02-20T01:18:00.003+08:00

Dear Ummy,

For the past 7 years we've been together as a husband & wife, you had done your part flawlessly and never failed to satisfy every single things that I had requested for. I know sometimes we had our ups and down, but no matter what come may, our love still growing stronger with the presence of our 2 princesses. I've remembered when the day we officially became husband and wife after the solemnization of our marriage, I felt that I wanted to hold you in my arms straight away just to show how much I love you:P but......I didn't dare to do that because we were in the midst of the family gathering and everybody would be judging me as a freak..Kekeke. I've remembered when we were in the labor room for the 1st time. We've waited since 5.30pm until 11pm in a hope that you could deliver our baby in SVD but when the doc said that you had to be ceasered, I ran downstairs & cried out loud because it was beyond my expectation. It was really hard that time but as soon as the nurse asked me to 'iqamah' our 1st princess, all the hard things were eased and I cried once more when I held our princess in my arms. And I was relief when the nurse said that you were doing fine because I couldn't imagine what it was going be like if you weren't around. Scary.....and yes! I was scared. Alhamdulillah, everything went well after that. And after 5 years expecting for the 2nd one, and there we went through the same situation again. You were in the labor room since 7pm and it was difficult to see you having the contractions all by yourself. I knew the pains were unbearable but I managed to restrain myself not to cry in front of you because I knew how would you react if you saw me cry. I've remembered around 10pm, I went to musolla to perform my pray and I said, 'Ya! Allah. Aku halalkan makan & minum Ummy, aku ampunkan segala dosa2 dia terhadapku. Tolonglah, ya!Allah. Kau permudahkanlah urusan kami ini. Biarlah Ummy dapat bersalin secara normal secepat mungkin dan selamatkanlah kedua2nya'. I went back to the labor room as soon as I had my pray, and then not too long after that, you were about to deliver our 2nd princess. Allah has granted my wish. Alhamdulillah...
Having you in my life is so wonderful and thanks for giving me such a valuable experience as a husband to you and a father to our princesses. Thanks for being there for me. May our love grow stronger than ever, be blessed with lotsa happiness.....until the end of our lives....till death do us part.

Your truly love,

Aby

Blog now open to public!

2011-02-18T12:09:00.002+08:00

I was about to delete this blog account but due to someone who had indirectly inspired me to open it back, so here I am.....now officially re-opened this blog back to the public.
I haven't update this blurdy blog quiet sometimes....However, there are so many things to tell, so little time to do that.

Hmmm......

I'll see how......

It kept me from behind..

2010-05-18T11:00:00.004+08:00

I realized that I haven't had a chance to update my blog; not because that I was extremely busy but I was clueless & didn't know what to write. Being a 'lurus bendul' in some certain part of your mundane chores sometimes could lead you to nothing, but sometimes could give you a huge impact. Why am I saying this? It happened to me, literally. People might think that this kind of attitude means you are ignorance and don't care about others. But how many of them do think like the way I think? None. I was helping this fella to overcome his some sort of rejection from the one that he loved most without facing the fact that she dumped him because she didn't want him anymore. My other BFF and I were helping this fella to make him realized that she's not worth to die for after put some considerations on her attitude and the way she had treated him. As the fella claimed that this is his first love and would not jump into conclusion or move on UNTIL this women a.k.a player throw the break up word to his face; he would rather waiting and waiting in a way that his pure and divine love will lead her back to him. We all knew that it won't be happened and the worst part is that this fella seemingly being blindfolded by her fake love. Why can't this fella open up his mind and see the game that this women had put him into? If we can see it, why can't you? Why must you put your devotion onto her while on the other hand you should know that all these are just your own infatuation? I really don't understand why you have become like this! It could be either me who 'lurus bendul' to understand your so-called magnificent love or it is just you who being so ignorance and prefer to solve your own complication in a hard way. It always kept me from behind to say this to you, so I'm taking this opportunity to write it down here. I don't think I would be able to assist you any further in your tragic love story. I know, you know,we know who is she to you and how she play this ridiculous love game and yet you are one of the victims who had been trapped into this crap, but since you said you wanted some certainty before you could leave all these behind, I won't stop you from doing it. It is your life after all, and I am nothing more than a friend who thought that by stopping you and make you realize how physco she is will safe your soul and energy. But I guess I was wrong. You are up on your own now. I'm officially withdrawing myself as a counselor to your love life. You and I? We still could be friend, no worries. It just that I had enough of that miserable physco pathetic troublemaker...which is that bitch.

Tajul Muluk - between myth, believe & culture

2010-03-30T11:35:00.003+08:00

I have develop some services that allow public to explore the world of 'Tajul Muluk'. For those who have not known what is Tajul Muluk or never heard of it, Tajul Muluk or Bintang 12 is an ancient prophecy based on some researches done by the generations before us. And those notes, results and any sources that they had were gathered, compiled and being used in additions from ancient Greek's prophecy.
Tajul Muluk or Bintang 12 was synonym with ancient astrology especially in Malay society whereby they analyze humans characters, attitudes, etiquette, loves and daily life's activities. Logically, Malay society still practice their customs and culture, order elders and guidelines. But the truth is, this customs and culture still relevant to be applied in our daily lives. That's why I have come up with this kind of service, not to let the public obsess with it and forget HE IS THE GREATEST and let their Aqidah ruins by themselves BUT to educate public that this service might also have something the truth behind it. All they have to do is to take the prophecy as their light reading and not to rely on it 100%. At least, this is how I see it.

Check our website for more details.
http://www.tajulmuluk.com.my

Taste of Vengeance

2010-03-30T10:31:00.005+08:00

I dare not to say some nasty stuffs anymore because my beloved mom's had asked me not to before she went to perform her Umra' few days ago. So, I'm in a midst of controlling myself not to lash out, not to curse or even not to hold a grudge towards etc etc. Having said all that, I feel that my life is pretty much heading to a correct path; much better than what I've become. You (yes!! You readers) don't have any idea what I have gone through these few weeks ago, how miserable & pathetic my life had become,just because I desired those things that I truly wanted to make it as my own belonging. But some irresponsible parties had made my desire turned dead. They have thrown away my desire. My dream was nothing to them even though they knew how important for me to get that thing. I was one step closer to own that thing. It was so close; as close as two people could get. But when I think about it over and over again, I realize it was a matter of 'rezki'. Sometimes no matter how hard we try, IF there's no 'rezki', we won't get what we want. I was devastated at first and keep blaming everyone's who had involved; especially the parties that I've mentioned earlier. If only they could tell me earlier about my status, this thing had never be done and I didn't have to put my expectation too high. Despite of all these learning experience, I knew that HE just wanted to test my patience and see how I handle my life throughout these obstacles. And thank to HIM, HE IS THE GREATEST know that I know what is the sweetness behind all these bitterness. I've remembered what HE had quoted in Surah Al- Insyirah. And silly me not to realize that everything that happens must have it reasons. During these obstacles, I have also received a very good news. But since it is still early to announce it over here, I'd ask for everyone's apology to let me reserve the news.

I'm now in the middle of waiting for my dream to come true. This time there is no more 3rd parties involve. Just me and me and me and me and me.........Wish me luck!

I hate waiting!!!!!

2010-03-17T10:46:00.006+08:00

For over 3-4 weeks, I have been hunting for this 'thing' to fulfill my desire & lust. To own and run my fingers on it is the only thing I would do if it happens to be mine. But easier said than done. The waiting period somehow or rather is killing me, deep inside and nothing I could do to surpass the time. If only I have the authority to quicken the process of this hire and purchase. So lame when we had to deal with this kind of community; which we thought it would be much easier to deal with due to our same believe & skin, rather than dealing with our opposite. Since I have experienced both, to be franked I would prefer the opposite side because they never forget their integrity when doing their business and they definitely know how to run a business. I just don't want to laid back like them but even though I'm not rushing to own it, but wouldn't it be nice to have it as soon as possible? And why can't they contact me to update or even ask my details if that's the only thing their lack of? I have submitted my docs since last week because I don't want to be burdened with the new interest rate and they have known about it. Why should a customer/buyer like me who had to call and check for the updates while it was suppose to be their jobs to do so? Aihh...I was so devastated and the only song that kept humming in my head was this -- I can't fight this feeling anymore - Reo Speedwagon. But i prefer the Glee version:P

Patah Hati - Allahyarham Sudirman Hj Arshad

2010-03-05T11:07:00.002+08:00

I was so taken aback by this song this morning. Not that I'm having a bad day neither frustrated with that 'thing' that had kept me waiting BUT it is more to my heart preference. Something that I had to deal with...like it or not.

Simple thought!

2010-02-08T16:46:00.004+08:00

Now, I have realized....

The more you let yourself go deeper, the more you get the

unnecessary

exposure. Sometimes the unnecessary thingy won't do you any harm IF you know

what's what.

But it will harms you IF you don't know or to naive to know that unnecessary

thingy

will try to get

the best of you. See what I mean? :)

FIL! He had to be told!

2010-02-03T16:00:00.006+08:00

Those who have been reading my blog, might have noticed that I have posted a pic of an old Honda Accord 1989 LX-i while ago (It's a kaleidoscopic mind - full of colors but never colorless: Honda Accord 1989 LX-i)

At first, we thought that since nobody using the car at home and FIL had told us that he wanted to sell it to someone else or any prospective buyer, we had decided to grab the deal by offering him another heavy duty vehicle for his daily business purpose. But after put some considerations, we had to let go the opportunity for some other reasons. I thought that my FIL would be pissed off soon after we justified about our clarification and thank God that he didn't. It wasn't that we can't bear the maintenance and the fuel consumption for that old Honda. The car still great when it comes to its performance on the road, handling and the interior design still at its best but it wasn't a perfect timing for us. I was truly devastated at the beginning after we had made a decision, more or less, I have foreseen that the car going to be one of our daily transportation regardless to the one that I'm using at the moment. But we had made our mind, and it was final. I'm planning to get another new car and don't know whether it is a local or continental type. Whatever it is, I'm telling you, every night at home, I always dream of owning a brand new Japs car, drive it with passion and chuck in all the family members inside it. Get a clue of what kind of car that I desired most? I'm truly head over heels with it. Wish me luck!

Tribute to Jim :(

2010-01-20T15:18:00.011+08:00

I'm kind of hands full these few days due to my own mundane chores but it won't stop me from writing something in my blog. I have a sad story to share with but first let me express my condolences to this wonderful & strong fella because her husband was died tragically after being shot. It happened when her husband was about to clean up, alone, at this one cabin whereby it supposed to be a wedding ceremony earlier on but then there were some conflicts appeared before the bride & groom tie the knot, so the bride calls off the wedding. (This fella & her husband were this couple wedding planner). When everybody left the cabin, the only person who hadn't was the groom. He was so devastated and pretty much hammered because he couldn't get married with the one that he loved. So, this fella's husband tried to persuade this groom to keep on moving and start his life again from the beginning. Felt threaten by the advice, the groom while holding a gun, pointed it out to this fella's husband. And again, he tried to persuade the groom not to do that but apparently failed. Realized that before someone got killed eventually, he decided to grab the gun from the groom's hand. Back then, this fella was so worried because her husband didn't pick up the phone when she called few times. So, she contacted the police department and talked to this detective. They both rushed to the cabin and saw shadows of two people behind the curtains, fought with a gun held in both hands. Without any clear justifications, the detective aimed his pistol and shot to the guy that finally got the gun on his hand. And it was this fella's husband who being shot. So, the husband admitted to the hospital and this fella have waited for him all night long in a hope that her husband could awake and smile to her again. She suddenly slept on a chair beside her husband bed. As soon as she woke up, she saw her husband kneel down to her. She was so happy because she thought that everything was fine, until her husband said that he suffered from ebolism. Her husband said, 'Don't worry!2x. I want you to remember me the way you see me now!'. She tried to get up from her chair in order to get a clear picture of the situation but soon she realized that it was her husband soul who she had talked to. She cried out loud when she saw the doctor & nurses tried to save her husband's life. And there, in that tragic room, she was being left alone by her husband who had passed away, leaving her with all the good memories behind.

Tribute to Jim Clancy, Melinda Gordon's husband ( Ghost Whisperer )

Do you have guts? I do!

2010-01-12T11:04:00.005+08:00

Some said that you've got to have guts in order to pursue anything that you want. While others might say that by having only guts won't make you taste the glory IF you don't plan properly. Everyone claims that they have what it takes to do such and such. But for me, if I were asked to do something that beyond my expectation, control and capability, I would definitely said no without hesitation. Why should I give 'em some false hopes just to be nice to 'em but at the end it is me who suffer the most? These are the thoughts that had terrorized my mind when I woke up in the middle of the night last night.
Recently, there were few friends had had invited me to join their business. I have been promised some commissions should I be succeed and help 'em to expand their business horizons. It were tempting at first, but after I put some considerations, I have decided not to join it. I don't think I owe 'em some explanations because my long silence act should give 'em the answer. But I do think that I owe 'em some apology...

FN: Don't ask me whether I have guts to join in or not, I do have guts BUT maybe the time is not right yet...I have my own plan for this year! Something different......

The momentum

2010-01-08T11:28:00.003+08:00

I have started to write or shall I say update my contents again. These few days, it seems that the intention to create something meaningful & outstanding to the subscribers have made me pull out all the strings that previously have had tied up my moves. I enjoyed when I received some positive feedback from 'em now & then. I was having a thought to put up some of the updates over here but not quiet sure how necessary can it be because at the moment the contents weren't bilingual and the only version I have was in Bahasa. I know I have among the lowest readers population over here and I believe all of followers/readers could very well verse in Bahasa so no need to put in another version, but that's not the reason why I having a doubt to do so. My main target is to boost up the traffics and I could only achieve that when they subscribe to it. The more subscribers I get the merrier income for the company. I know I may have another alternative to make it more profitable for myself, but let's not talk about it yet. Meanwhile, my solely intention is to make sure that the branding that I have introduce is reliable, long lasting and will create a solid fundamental in its own way. I want it to be phenomenal.......Hmmm.

I think I've fall in love again.....

2010-01-06T16:43:00.002+08:00

I always have something to say when it comes to my desire or lust or anything that could drive me crazy. To be franked, when I started to know about IT, i always thought that this stuff more or less is like any other stuff and there’s nothing special to brag about it. But then, when I decided to get to know and started to put my attention on it, suddenly I feel in love again. The feeling is so exquisite and I don’t know how to put it into words. It makes me wandering every night before I go to bed, I’ve even dreamed about it last night and nothing could compare it to any other stuff that I did. This one is so amazing and nothing could stop me finish what I’ve started.

This entry dedicated to my new infatuation, The Mafia Wars on FB…. J

Have a fantabulous new year, 2010

2009-12-30T15:43:00.000+08:00

This is going to be my last entry for the year of 2009. I’ve realized that blog writing is another platform that had helped to soothe me whenever I’m mad about something or whenever I wanted to express my feelings. And again thanks to the only person who had dragged me, barefoot into this blogging world. (You know who you areJ).

I have so many things in my to-do-list that I really want to accomplish for the next year. Just hope that whatever decision that have been made or/and any circumstances that may come, will be bear by me….like it or not.

So, I hope you guys (who might have read this) having a wonderful year end and let’s start our life with something that totally meaningful and become a better person.

The ocean is deep but I have to keep swimming……….

Have a fantabulous new year, 2010.

My BMI index....(sad but true)

2009-12-21T13:20:00.002+08:00

BMI & Daily Needs Calculator

You are a 32 year old man, 5ft 7in / 170cm tall, with a current weight of 52.0kg. You lead a sedentary lifestyle.

Body Mass Index (BMI)

Your BMI
18.0

BMI is a standardized ratio of weight to height, and is often used as a general indicator of health. The "normal" BMI for an adult man of your height is 18.5 to 24.9. This translates to a healthy weight range of 53 to 72 kg.However, BMI does not take body composition into account. A weight above this range could still be considered healthy if your percentage body fat is less than average. For more accurate determination of body fat levels, consider using a body fat caliper.

Calories Burned

Your Calories Burned

Daily Energy Expenditure:

2146 kcal

( 8985 kJ)

Note: Accurate determination of the Calories you burn can only be accomplished by individual physiological testing. This calculation is merely an estimate that was derived from regression formulas and data provided by these sources:

2002, "Dietary Reference Intakes for Energy, Carbohydrate, Fiber, Fat, Fatty Acids, Cholesterol, Protein, and Amino Acids," Food and Nutrition Board, Institute of Medicine.

Ainsworth B.E., 2002, January, "The Compendium of Physical Activities Tracking Guide," Prevention Research Center, Norman J. Arnold School of Public Health, Univ of SC.

In the above table, the Daily Energy Expenditure includes Basal Energy Expenditure (BEE), the energy consumed by daily activities, and the Thermic Effect of Food (TEF).

This estimate represents the total daily Calories needed to maintain your current body weight. To gain or lose weight, you may need to adjust your Calories upward or downward from this amount.

Recommended Minimum Daily Needs

Your Recommended Minimums
Total Carbohydrate	130.0	g
Dietary Fiber	38.0	g
Linoleic Acid	17000.0	mg
Alpha-Linolenic Acid	1600.0	mg
Protein	42	g
Vitamins
Vitamin A	3000.0	IU
Vitamin C	90.0	mg
Vitamin D	200.0	IU
Vitamin E	15.0	mg
Vitamin K	120.0	mcg
Thiamin	1.2	mg
Riboflavin	1.3	mg
Niacin	16.0	mg
Vitamin B6	1.3	mg
Folate	400.0	mcg
Vitamin B12	2.4	mcg
Pantothenic Acid	5.0	mg
Biotin	30.0	mcg
Choline	550.0	mg
Minerals
Calcium	1000.0	mg
Chromium	35.0	mcg
Copper	0.9	mg
Flouride	4.0	mg
Iodine	150.0	mcg
Iron	8.0	mg
Magnesium	420.0	mg
Manganese	2.3	mg
Molybdenum	45.0	mcg
Phosphorus	700.0	mg
Selenium	55.0	mcg
Zinc	11.0	mg

Here is an estimate of your minimum daily nutrient needs, based of the Dietary Reference Intakes (DRI) established by the Food and Nutrition Board, Institute of Medicine (IOM)...

Note: The above recommendations are only estimates of your minimum needs, and do not take into account any illness or genetic individuality. These recommendations are specific to men between the ages of 31 and 50, and may differ from the standardized Daily Values used on nutrition facts labels. Some of the nutrients included in these recommendations are not yet tracked by NutritionData.com.

Recommended Macronutrient Distribution

Your Recommended Ranges
Carbohydrate: 45 to 65% of total Calories
Fat: 20 to 35% of total Calories
Protein: 10 to 35% of total Calories

Note: These recommended ranges for macronutrients are based on your age and come from the IOM.

Source: http://www.nutritiondata.com

ڤرکهوينن بوکن ساتو باهن اوجيکاجي

2009-12-14T15:27:00.002+08:00

بارو-بارو اين، اکو منمنکن ساله سأورڠ تمن باءيقکو مڠحاضيري ساتو اچارا باݢي مرءيقان سمبوتن اولڠ تاهون سأورڠ ارتيس. والاوڤون اکو بوکنله سأورڠ ڤمينت تݢر ارتيس ايت، نامون اتس داسر ڤرساهابتن، اکو مڠݢاݢهکن ديري جوا منماني بلياو دان سوده دوا کالي برتوروت-توروت، اکو منجادي ڤنمن کڤد تمن باءيقکو ايت. نامون، بوکن سڠ ارتيس ايت يڠ منجادي توڤيق اونتوق اکو منوليس کالي اين، تتاڤي صحابة باءيقکو ايت سنديري.

سباݢاي سأورڠ يڠ برکرجاي دان اݢق بروسيا دريکو، اچڤکالي اکو برتاڽکن کڤد بلياو بيلاکه ماسڽ اونتوق دي منديريکن رومهتڠݢ. نامون، جواڤن يڠ اکو تريما، سلالوڽ، ماسيه بلوم برسديا.

تتاڤي ڤرتموان اکو کالي اين، اݢق برلاينن سکالي کران اخيرڽ بلياو دڠن إخلاصڽ ممبريتاهو يڠ بلياو کيني ماسيه ددالم ڤريڠکت مڠنالي هاتي سأورڠ وانيتا. کيت لوڤاکن ستاتوس وانيتا ايت بوات ماس سکارڠ، اڤ يڠ ايڠين اکو تکانکن د سيني، بهاوا اخيرڽ تمن باءيقکو ايت اخيرڽ تله ممبوک هاتيڽ اونتوق سأورڠ وانيتا ستله سکين لاما هيدوڤ ممبوجڠ. رياکسي يڠ اکو بريکن ڤد مولاڽ، اݢق ترکجوت کران اکو فيکير، موڠکين تمن باءيقکو اين تيدق اکن منديريکن رومهتڠݢ هيڠݢ ک اخير حياة. نامون، سياڤاله اکو جک هندق دبنديڠکن دڠن ککواسأن الله.سسوڠݢوهڽ الله ايت مها کاي دان مڠتاهوي اڤ يڠ ترباءيق اونتوق همباڽ.

بلياو ممينتا ڤنداڠن دان نصيحت دريکو، ممندڠکن اکو سنديري سوده برومهتڠݢ سلاما 6 تاهون. دان دسببکن اکو، دمات بلياو، سباݢاي سأورڠ تمن يڠ بوليه ملونترکن ايديا دان نصيحت يڠ برݢونا، اکو منجادي انتارا اورڠ يڠ ترڤنتيڠ اونتوق بلياو منداڤتکن ڤنداڠن. بلياو مڠاتکن بهاوا سوده ممينتا ڤتونجوق دڠن ملاکوکن صلاة استخارة سباڽق 3 کالي، نامون ماسيه لاݢي تيدق برتمو جواڤنڽ. اکو کاتاکن ڤدڽ اݢر تروس ممبوات صلاة استخارة ايت، سهيڠݢ بلياو بتول-بتول ڤستي دان منداڤت جواڤنڽ. اکو کاتاکن لاݢي، اد سبب مڠاڤ الله تيدق ممبريکن جواڤن يڠ تروس کڤداڽ، دان اکو ايڠتکن جوݢ بهاوا اد حکمه دستياڤ اڤ يڠ برلاکو ايت. اکو کاتاکن لاݢي کڤد بلياو بهاوا اڤ جوا عمالن يڠ دلاکوکن، دعا يڠ دمينتا، بلياو هاروس يقين يڠ الله ڤستي اکن ممبنتوڽ. جک بنر-بنر هاتيڽ إخلاص، ڤستي الله اکن ڤرمودهکن اوروسنڽ.

اونتوق تمن باءيقکو ايت، اکو مندواکن اݢر بلياو منموءي جواڤن يڠ دچاريڽ سبلوم مڠمبيل اڤ جوا تيندقن يڠ باکل مروبه هيدوڤ دان ماس دڤنڽ. برومهتڠݢ ايت بوکن ساتو اوجيکاجي، تتاڤي ساتو ڤڠوربانن اونتوق مڠچاڤي کبهاݢيءن هيدوڤ يڠ هاکيکي.

Hopelessly & Willlingly

2009-12-08T12:44:00.006+08:00

I could still hear my bones rattle every time I adjust my seat at the office. Both thighs were painful or shall I say swollen due to my exercise-freak habit that I adapt these days. Last night, I haven't had a chance to exercise like what I did on the day before, but I've managed to do some seat-ups in a way that, I was hoping that the existing muscle pains would ease slowly. My unproven theoretically would say that, once we have the muscle pains, there would be no harm to make it more painful as long as our body could bear with it. Silly am I?

A body without a soul...

2009-12-07T09:43:00.005+08:00

I was looking for a material to write it down here together with my intention to update my contents in the database. But the longer I think about it, the longer I become so clueless and conclude that I'm having an agonizing pain............in my mind:P. It is so painful until nobody could imagine it. The idea of updating my own creative writings in the library, more or less has come to the dead end. I need something that fresh from the oven, rejuvenate and new to be updated in my library. Where the hell could I get the refreshing idea? I need to do lots of readings for this, I need to search for something different so that the market knows that the services are still exist and convincing and they won't regret for subscribing it. Right now, I think the best way to describe my unscrupulous feeling is like having a body without a soul: stiff and cold.
Some said that I should do some exercises at a regular basis. For the first time in my entire life,yesterday, I did it with a help of my lil' princess. We imitated the form of exercises from the show called 'The Biggest Loser-Asia'. We had fun doing it; push-ups, seat-ups, jogs, jumps, etc..until we were exhausted like hell. We were sweating and both of us LOL to each other. I did some awkward moves not to impress my lil' princess but to myself, and ended up my lil' princess LOL at me. I guess that was the first time she saw me doing some stretching stuffs and it was hilarious to her.
So today, I came to the office with muscle pains here and there in a hope that my mind would be the other way around. But I was wrong, I still couldn't figure out what's the best to put in the library for today onwards. I guess the best way is to read more motivational stuff or at least some sparkling romance so that I'll be inspired by it.

FN: What is the similarity between creative contents writer/editor and a book author? Both need to be creative and have originality:P.

I knew I could do better if..

2009-12-04T14:19:00.004+08:00

When it comes to the year end, there must be something that I regret in my life and simply thought that I knew I could do better if.....

1) I want to quit smoking but I don't put much effort on it. I knew I could do better if I really determine and outsource my stress to something that could benefit me rather than smoking. Why I relate stress to this one? Simple. Personally for me, stress = smoking.
2) I want to look for something different in my career. There is nothing wrong with my current job, it just that I want to expose myself to something that I'm really good at. Let my skills and working experience put me up to a next level so that others could appreciate my loyalty and realize that I'm worth to be hired. I knew I could do better if I be more aggressive rather than rely on job hunters or any portal that as if having lots of vacancies but the priority given to the premium applicants members.
3) I want to make myself more busy with chores and dedicated my life to it as long as I am capable of doing it. Despite of my age, I still have lots of ideas on how to make something work by referring to my knowledge and interests. I am mature and I could decide on what's what compare to young fresh grads I suppose. I knew I could do better if I decided to change my career as soon as 2009 approaches. Now it's going to 2010, I guess I have to start it all over again.
4) I want to put my lil' princess to an international school which I thought that that is the best for her. But due to some unforeseen circumstances, I thought that she'd get the best education as well from the local school. Same goes to her mom & dad. We weren't from an elite school either but we still living our lives as it should: happily, healthy, wisely. I knew I could do better if I plan this one from the first day that my lil' princess was born and put aside her education fee for this.
5) I want to perform 'Umra (minor pilgrimage) with my beloved mum which I have dreamed about it since last 2-3 years. I had this kind of dream whereby my mum and I holding hands to each other and stand in front of Kaaba (House of God). I knew I could do better if I made myself well prepare; mentally and physically since the first day that I made this wish.

There are many other things that I knew I could do better and make it done before its too late. I will jot it down and share with you guys if I had more time.........Someone really close to me once said this, don't let the worry worries until the worry worried you. I guess it's time for me to get worry about all of these before I have my last breathe.

More Than Words - Guitar Note

2009-12-02T15:24:00.002+08:00

* I think I have had kept this guitar note long ago in my documents. I couldn't remember where did I find it.
So whoever had written this note, kudos to you. I wish that I know how to play a guitar or at least someone
could willingly play this note to me..Hmmm



Tuning: Eb Ab Db Gb Bb Eb (standard 1/2 step down)

Extreme / More Than Words

INTRO:

   G     G/B     Cadd9             Am7               C         Dsus4   G

   +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +

e:---3-------3-----|---0-----3-0-----|---0-----3-0-----|---0---2---3-----|

B:---3-x-3---3-x-3-|---3-x---3-3-x-1-|---1-x-1-1-1-x-1-|---1-x-3---3-x-3-|

G:---0-x-0---0-x-0-|---0-x---0-0-x-0-|---0-x-0-0-0-x-0-|---0-x-2---2-x-0-|

D:-----x-------x---|-----x-------x---|-----x-------x---|-----x---0---x---|

A:-------2-------3-|-------3---3---0-|-------0-------3-|-----------------|

E:-3---------------|-----------------|-----------------|---------------3-|

         G/B     Cadd9             Am7               C         Dsus4   G

   +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +

e:---3-------3-----|---0-----3-0-----|---0-----3-0-----|---0---2---3-----|

B:---3-x-3---3-x-3-|---3-x---3-3-x-1-|---1-x-1-1-1-x-1-|---1-x-3---3-x-3-|

G:---0-x-0---0-x-0-|---0-x---0-0-x-0-|---0-x-0-0-0-x-0-|---0-x-2---2-x-0-|

D:-----x-------x---|-----x-------x---|-----x-------x---|-----x---0---x---|

A:-------2-------3-|-------3---3---0-|-------0-------3-|-----------------|

E:-----------------|-----------------|-----------------|---------------3-|

This is the verse tab:

             sayin' I love you       is not the words I   want to hear from

   G     G/B     Cadd9             Am7               C         Dsus4   G

   +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +

e:---3-------3-----|---0-----3-0-----|---0-----3-0-----|---0---2---3-----|

B:---3-x-3---3-x-3-|---3-x---3-3-x-1-|---1-x-1-1-1-x-1-|---1-x-3---3-x-3-|

G:---0-x-0---0-x-0-|---0-x---0-0-x-0-|---0-x-0-0-0-x-0-|---0-x-2---2-x-0-|

D:-----x-------x---|-----x-------x---|-----x-------x---|-----x---0---x---|

A:-------2-------3-|-------3---3---0-|-------0-------3-|-----------------|

E:-----------------|-----------------|-----------------|---------------3-|

  you    it's not that I want to       not to say but if you     only

         G/B     Cadd9             Am7               C         Dsus4   Em

   +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +

e:---3-------3-----|---0-----3-0-----|---0-----3-0-----|---0---2---3-----|

B:---3-x-3---3-x-3-|---3-x---3-3-x-1-|---1-x-1-1-1-x-1-|---1-x-3---3-x-0-|

G:---0-x-0---0-x-0-|---0-x---0-0-x-0-|---0-x-0-0-0-x-0-|---0-x-2---2-x-0-|

D:-----x-------x---|-----x-------x---|-----x-------x---|-----x---0---x---|

A:-------2-------3-|-------3---3---0-|-------0-------3-|-----------------|

E:-----------------|-----------------|-----------------|---------------0-|

   knew      how     easy      it would be to        show me   how you

         Em/B    C                     D             G         D/F#    Em

   +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +

e:---0-------0-----|---0-----3-0-----|-2-----2---2---3-|-------3---2-----|

B:---0-x-0---0-x-1-|---1-x---1-1-x---|-3---x-3---3-x-3-|---3---3---3---0-|

G:---0-x-0---0-x-0-|---0-x---0-0-x---|-2---x-2---2-x-0-|---0---2---2---0-|

D:-----x-------x---|-----x-------x---|-0---x-0---0-x---|---0-------------|

A:-------2-------3-|-------3---3-----|-----------------|-----------------|

E:-----------------|-----------------|---------------3-|---3---2---2---0-|

 feel         more than words     is all you have to do to make it real

         C       Am7                   D             G7        G7/B    C

   +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +

e:---0-------0-----|---0-----3-0-----|-2-----2---2---1-|---1-------1-----|

B:---0-x-----1-x-1-|---1-x---1-1-x---|-3---x-3---3-x-0-|---0---0---0---1-|

G:---0-x-----0-x-0-|---0-x---0-0-x---|-2---x-2---2-x-0-|---0---0---0---0-|

D:-----x-------x---|-----x-------x---|-0---x-0---0-x---|---0-------------|

A:-------3-------0-|-------0---0---0-|-----------------|-------2-------3-|

E:-----------------|-----------------|---------------3-|---3-------------|

           then you wouldn't have to say      that you love me      cause

                 Am7               G             G6  Em    G/B Em  G/B

   +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +

e:---0-----3-0-----|---3-----3-0-----|---3-----3-0---3-|---3---3---3-----|

B:---1-x---1-1-x-1-|---1-x---1-1-x---|---3-x---3-3-x-3-|-x-3-x-3-x-3-x---|

G:---0-x---0-0-x-0-|---0-x---0-0-x---|---0-x---0-0-x-0-|-x-0-x-0-x-0-x---|

D:-----x-------x---|-----x-------x---|-----x-------x-2-|-x---x-2-x---x---|

A:-------3-------0-|-------0---0-----|-----------------|---2-------2-----|

E:-----------------|---------------3-|---------3-3-----|-----------------|

    I'd              already...

    C                  D

    +   +   +   +      +   +   +   +

e:-^0---------------|-^2---------------|

B:-^1---------------|-^3---------------|

G:-^0---------------|-^2---------------|

D:-^2---------------|-^0---------------|

A:-^3---------------|------------------|

E:------------------|------------------|

This is the chorus tab:

   know    what  would     you         do      if my heart were torn in two

   G     G/B     G         G/B         D             C     G/B Am7     C

   +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +

e:---3-------3-----|---3-------3-----|-----2---2-2-----|-----------3-----|

B:---3-x-3---3-x-3-|---3-x-3---3-x---|-3---3---3-3---1-|-x-0-x---1-1-x-1-|

G:---0-x-0---0-x-0-|---0-x-0---0-x---|-2---2---2-2---0-|-x-0-x-0-----x-0-|

D:-----x-------x---|-----x-------x---|-0-------0-0-----|-x---x-------x---|

A:-------2---------|-------2---------|---------------3-|---2---0-------3-|

E:-3-------------3-|-----------------|-----------------|-----------------|

            more than words to show you    feel that your love for me is

                               G/B Am7               D         D7      G

   +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +

e:---0-----0-0---0-|---0---0---3---0-|---0-----3-0---2-|---2---2---2-----|

B:---1-x---1-1-x-1-|---1-x-1-x-3-x-1-|---1-x---1-1-x-3-|-x-3-x-1-x-1-x---|

G:---0-x---0-0-x-0-|---0-x-0-x-0-x-0-|---0-x---0-0-x-2-|-x-2-x-2-x-2-x---|

D:-----x-------x---|-----x---x---x---|-----x-------x-0-|-x-0-x-0-x-0-x---|

A:---------3-3---3-|---3---3---2---0-|---0-----0-0-----|-----------------|

E:-----------------|-----------------|-----------------|---------------3-|

    real     what would     you       say       if I took  those words away

         G/B     G         G/B         D             C     G/B Am7     C

   +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +

e:---3-------3-----|---3-------3-----|-----2---2-2-----|-----------3-----|

B:---3-x-3---3-x-3-|---3-x-3---3-x---|-3---3---3-3---1-|-x-0-x---1-1-x-1-|

G:---0-x-0---0-x-0-|---0-x-0---0-x---|-2---2---2-2---0-|-x-0-x-0-----x-0-|

D:-----x-------x---|-----x-------x---|-0-------0-0-----|-x---x-------x---|

A:-------2---------|-------2---------|---------------3-|---2---0-------3-|

E:---------------3-|-----------------|-----------------|-----------------|

           then you couldn't make things new just by  sayin' I love you

                               G/B Am7                D

   +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +     +   +   +   +      +   +   +   +

e:---0-----0-0---0-|---0---0---3---0-|---0-----3-0---^2-|-----------------|

B:---1-x---1-1-x-1-|---1-x-1-x-3-x-1-|---1-x---1-1-x-^3-|-----------------|

G:---0-x---0-0-x-0-|---0-x-0-x-0-x-0-|---0-x---0-0-x-^2-|-----------------|

D:-----x-------x---|-----x---x---x---|-----x-------x-^0-|-----------------|

A:---------3-3---3-|---3---3---2---0-|---0-----0-0------|-----------------|

E:-----------------|-----------------|------------------|-----------------|

Note: Start over for the second verse.`

lyrics:

verse 1

Sayin "I love you" is not the words I want to hear from you

It's not that I want you not to say but if you only knew

how easy it would be to show me how you feel

more than words is all you have to do to make it real

then you wouldn't have to say that you love me

'cause I'd already know

chorus

What would you do

if my heart was torn in two?

more than words to show you feel

that your love for me is real

What would you say

if I took those words away?

Then you couldn't make things new

just by sayin' "I love you"

la di da da da di da da di da..etc...

verse 2

Now that I have tried to talk to you and make you understand

all you have to do is close your eyes and just reach out your hands

and touch me, hold me close don't ever let me go

more than words is all i ever needed you to show

then you wouldn't have to say

that you love me 'cause I'd already know.

Some thoughts...............................

2009-12-02T12:55:00.000+08:00

Dealing with our own thoughts sometimes can be too painful even no matter how tiny the situation is. That's what I've been doing these years by pushing off myself to its limit. It's getting worse when these days presumably, I kept telling myself so many rules to be obliged just to make sure that I know the limitation whether as a husband to my wife or as a father to my own daughter or as an employee to my principle. Everybody has their own goals in their lives. It can be anything as simple as reducing weight even half a kilogram, or stop cursing other drivers while driving on the road or stop being annoying to others. These are the fundamentals that I believe everyone would have in their lives regardless to what their level of thinking.

To achieve something in our lives, more or less, somehow need a lot of justifications. If we want to succeed, of course we would make it happen no matter what kind of obstacles coming through our ways. For instance, if you want to have children, regardless to any gender, for sure you would cooperate with your loved one to calculate when is the best time to get intimate, when is the ovulation time, how frequent would you willing to get 'down' to it and such. Think at the bright side, if let say you fail to get pregnant, at least you get some intimate moments with the loved ones. It's a win-win situation and I believe everyone will agree on that.

Speaking about having a deep thought, the best moment for me is in the middle of the night. Either I stay back to 'count the stars' or off to bed early and get up back 2-3 hours later, as long as nobody ''alive' at that present, that is the best time for me to do some thinking. Those who familiar with the word 'muhasabah & bermunajat' must know what kind of terms that you should be doing while you in this situation. I used to do this since I was a student at high school. Despite of having my own peace, I could do anything I want with my own time & space while the rest having their sleep.

No matter what kind of difficulties that you might be having, always put yourself to the center while you carry on with your own thoughts wisely. Unforeseen the circumstances before you choose your path whether to the right or left. Don't let your instinct mislead you and don't let the situation controls you. If you can't control the situation, then don't expect others to help you out on that. Should you come to the dead end, talk to the one that you trust most. Besides, listen to others might be helpful but don't expect them to offer you the solutions. You, yourself should find the solutions. It is you who should nail down with the issues.

I'm signing off---------------------------------- for now.

I dream for what I dream..

2009-12-01T10:42:00.006+08:00

A year of 2009 has come to an end, yet I still have tones of wishes, hopes and dreams to be fulfilled, not by others, not by you who occasionally read my blog, not even by the 'Pakcik' who open a grocery store behind my house that never put an effort to clean his rack shelves where he put all the items to be sold, not by an aunt; a neighbor, who love to gardening every morning in front her house, or even by that 'Mamat Satria' who used to park his car in front of our house every night & day, BUT by me. To be franked, all of these craps have been terrorizing my mind long ago, but this morning, when I was stuck in traffic jams with hundreds of cars before and after me, suddenly I feel so petrified and threaten by all of them. They drove huge cars, imported and brand-new. You could see their egos & pride that somehow reflected from the car that they driven. While I let my car crawling with others, I took a chance to pick and choose; a silly game that I invented unintentionally. 'I want that one! That one! That one! Yeah...That one! That! That! That as well! Haa...That one! ‘I said to myself every time my eyes catch any continental car, imported, brand-new, stylish, tough, shining & tempting. But there were few times as well, my eyes catch some local made, not that popular, too small, compact, or even some continental cars that you thought it weren't suppose to be on the road anymore. While I amazed with the drivers that could still move their 'Pre-historic' machines, I said to myself 'No! Ah! No! Hell! No! No way! I don’t want that! No!’ If to get a brad-new car as simple as my silly game pick & choose or even make-a-wish-upon-the-star thingy, I guess I had to have a trillion of Ringgit in my saving account because I don’t just desire one, but many of the them as my collectible items. I wish for what I wish……. (Not Toyota Wish:P)

Enough said about mouth-watering cars, the other thing that I’d like to have in my life, at least to own a landed property whereby I can bring my family to chuck in and make them comfy; a place where I can do some gardening, relaxing and spacious enough to build up my own privacy without unwanted disturbance from unwanted people. I’m a homey person and as a home person, I always find that a perfect spot to get rid of anything is a home where I live in. Whilst others might think that a ‘peaceful mind’ could be ‘bought’ elsewhere, mine is the other way around. To spend my time and be around with my family is the only thing that could ‘cure’ me instead of finding it outside. What’s the point of having a family if I can’t rely on them vice-versa? Well! Of course, some of the times conflict does happens inside the house, but no matter how far I go, no matter how far I run, I always go back from where it begun. And it’s call home. (Unless if I live inside the RV, once I’m run, I have to drive along with it:P). There are so many new development areas around the place I live right now, and I’m aiming to get myself a 3 storey terrace house complete with a huge front yard and back yard so that I could build a ‘mini-zoo’ to my other half. Kekeke..

An Interview With My Lil' Princess

2009-11-17T09:31:00.006+08:00

I was planning to upload these videos which I had separated it into 5 sections for Facebook because of the file size limitation, but due to some connection errors, I've decided to put it here instead. There were few names being mentioned by my lil' princess inside these videos, if the person/s whose name being mentioned intentionally or unintentionally, feel that the contents were abusive or inappropriate or even provocative, please leave this website and chill out :P. You may come back once you calm down or/and when you know how to treat this as a sweet joke.

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

Part 5

International Islamic College - Admission

2009-11-13T16:06:00.005+08:00

As I mentioned earlier in my previous post, those who are interested to enroll any certificate/diploma/degree programs at International Islamic College, can do so by contacting Carolina Mohd Rizal, Dean Centre of Languages at this number: 603- 6187 6900 ext 630. Please log on to this website for more details. http://www.iic.edu.my

Email: kcaerel@yahoo.com

لواهن راس

2009-11-11T14:19:00.000+08:00

هندق مڠمسکيني لامن سسواڠ سنديري ڤون، اکو سأوله-اوله تياد کايڠينن. اڤاته لاݢي بيلا مڠنڠکن کرجا يڠ برتيمبون-تيمبون دان چونتنث اڤدات يڠ برلمبق-لمبق. مان ساتو هندق ددولوکن اکو سنديري ڤون تق تاهو. هندق برچوتي جاوه سکالي والاوڤون سوده هوجوڠ تاهون. جک برچوتي، کمانا ڤولا هاروسکو توجو سداڠکن تياد کايڠينن لڠسوڠ اونتوق اکو ڤرݢي ک مان-مان. اکو راس اين نامڽ ڤڽاکيت هوجوڠ تاهون. سربا سربي جادي تق کنا، سربا سربي جادي تق کروان ڤدحال جک دتيمبل-باليق، چونتنث اڤدات بوليه دبوات سکالي سميڠݢو. ادکه اکو سوده کهيلڠن ايديا دالم ڤنوليسن کرياتيف؟

Admission to International Islamic College

2009-11-06T19:31:00.003+08:00

Attention: Those who are interested to enrol various programmes for Diploma/Degree level at International Islamic College, please feel free to contact me or leave your contact number for more details. Check out this website for more details on programme offer http://www.iic.edu.my

Or you can contact: Carolina Mohd Rizal, Dean Centre of Languages, International Islamic College
Phone: 03-61876900

How Do I Love Thee? Let Me Count The Ways - Elizabeth Barret Browning (1806-1861)

2009-11-05T15:11:00.004+08:00

" How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, --- I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! --- and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death." - Elizabeth Barret Browning

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Apparently I am in reminiscence mode whereby my mind being clawed back all the texts and love notes that my wife & I had shared during our lovey-dopey time before we officially 'halal'. Hik Hik..The reasons why these thing pop up in my clustered mind because last week, I had to do some spring cleaning with my own stuff back at my home town. Since our (my mom's to be precised) house was in the midst of having a slightly renovation, so my mom had authorized me to clear my stuff before they throw it away. There were piles of papers i.e. assignments, notes, technical documents, also there were books and not to forget, the most important things were the love letters from my wife. I still kept those letters and what I had in mind was to handover it to my little princess when she's old enough to understand the chemistry between us. I knew that my wife still keep all my letters to her and I've had a chance to read it back one time and I knew that how I was so naive that time :p. Having said that, the love affection that we had built up together since we were in dating mode, however have led us to what we are right now. We had fun exchanging personal stuff i.e watch, more or less, our thoughts and other things that relevant and it keep on going until now. Of course there are ups and downs in our marriage lives, but neither me nor her feels that we should stop from loving each other because of some silly stuffs that inevitably happen in our lives. I've remembered what we quoted in our wedding invitation cards..'Love is meant to be shared with family & friends' and of course, the one that we love. If we can't be with the one that we love, just love with the one that we can.

Some info updates..

2009-10-29T15:36:00.002+08:00

I haven't had a chance to update my blog recently due to some unforeseen circumstances. Anyway, I'd list down some of the scenarios just in order to let my readers know how chaotic & unmanageable my life turn into these few days.

1) I've gone for the interview at Damansara Jaya and all I could say that the interview session has run smoothly & I have given my best shot on it. Just trying my luck & hope to hear the good news about it. But just in case, if I'm not the chosen one, I'd be happy to know the ratio of my performance so that I could do some post-mortem. Huhuhuhu..
2) I'm going to have another 2 interviews and luckily I've managed to reschedule one of it due to my inability to attend the session.
3) I have to attend a Family Day this weekend outside Klang Valley and we have received the tentative of the programme.
4) I have yet to update lots of contents for database but all I could do is to pray that I could have more time
5) My precious milestone had to undergo a treatment at the hospital due to infections in her lungs & we were so devastated about it. She started to get the cough last Sunday 18/10 and we have brought her to the panel clinic. But due to the malfunction of the 'Chorum' antibiotic that she had taken, the doctor finally referred her to the hospital for further treatment.

So, I guess now everybody knows what's happening in my life right now. I hope that my little princess will recover soon & we get our lives back.

Another job interview

2009-10-12T11:36:00.003+08:00

I have confirmed my attendance to the interviewer for the interview. Yet, nothing much to prepare but I will make sure myself is ready to impart the best knowledge that I have should they ask about it. Wish me luck & may I get all the things that I want what come may.

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follows:-
Date and Time: Oct 20 2009 2:00PM
Venue: 15B, Jalan xxxxxxx, Damansara Jaya, Petaling Jaya, 47400
Tel#: 012-xxxxxxx
Please bring your certificates and other relevant documents.

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Lunch at MM Cafe

2009-10-06T14:22:00.005+08:00

I had my unplanned lunch with he-who-shall-not-be-named this afternoon at Happy Mansion, PJ (some where nearby my office area). At first I thought that we going to have our quick lunch downstairs my block until my friend decided to gave me a free ride as he claimed that there was nothing to be eaten here :P. As he drove his car along this residential area, there was a road block by police. And out of nowhere, our car being detained and the police asked us to pull over. We were confuse and blur at first and I asked my friend, what have we done wrong? Then, one of the policemen came and approached us and asked politely:P ' When was the car road tax expired huh? '. I looked at my friend as his voice being stumbled to find an answer and then I opened my door and took a peep. 'Hey You! It was expired on June!' I told my friend. Shocked with the date, my friend said that he has renewed it but haven't had a chance to replace it with the new one. Luckily, he brought the new one and showed it to the policeman. Then, the policeman advised us to replace it and let us go. Kekekeke...I said to my friend 'Now it's already October. Gila lama you tak tukar? ' Then I laughed out loud.

Morale of the story: Always check when is our car road tax due because we might not know how much we need to spend if we are being summoned by the police for that. Kekekeeke. And to my friend, thanks for the free ride. :P

p/s This entry has been vetted and put under surveillance by he-who-shall-not-be-named. Arghh!!! Benci :P

An Invitation....

2009-10-06T11:25:00.004+08:00

I have received an invitation through PitchYourTalent website. But to be franked, I'm still haven't had a chance to say yes or no to it yet. We'll see how it goes..Hmm!!

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Purpose of Contact:
For Salaried Employment (Hiring Managers, HR)

Message:
Dear Mr Kxxxxx,

We understand you have an IT background. However, if you are keen to consider other career options, we would like to inform you that our organisation currently has an opening for the position of Business Development xxxxxx.

Requirements:
• Degree / Diploma / Certificate holders in any field are encouraged to apply
• With working experience in sales-oriented or customer service field would definitely
be an advantage
• Positive mindset, good team-player, have a desire to be a professional, willingness to
learn and have an interest to develop their career in the financial services sector are
encouraged to apply
• Possesses excellent interpersonal and communication skills with multi-lingual ability
• Possesses own transportation

What we offer:
• Comprehensive training courses and career development programmes will be provided
• Generous basic + attractive monthly incentives + bonuses + allowances

Should you be keen to apply for the above position, please submit your resume to xxxxx@gmail.com or call xxxxx at 012-xxxxxx for an interview. Thank you.

Honda Accord 1989 LX-i

2009-10-06T09:49:00.003+08:00

I shall let the pictures do the talking....

Yesterday was a disaster..

2009-10-02T15:44:00.005+08:00

I was completely taken a back when I received a bad news from that financial institution regarding my status. You see, I was in a midst of choosing a property to buy and previously one of my best friends ( the person that I was referring to) had consulted me about the scenarios. After received a positive feedback, I have started to dreamed about my life, what's going to be like living in my very own property. But, the truth is, I need to wait for several months more in order to make my dream come true. Soon after I realized with my own predicament, without a doubt, I have contacted my wife and told her about that. It wasn't a pleasant thought to share the news with her at the first place. I knew what will she said (what do you expect? We've been married for the past 6 years) and my prediction about her response was so damned correct. I hang up after I told her what's what, and there I was, having a cup of coffee with a long pause in mind, all by myself. As if my mind being freeze and all I could do was staring at my own desk. Luckily, I managed to finished all my mundane chores and until my wife called me back to apologized because she was lashed out and devastated by the news. Again, calmly I told her that I wasn't surprised and I knew it going to be happened. I drove back to her office and finally I told her that sooner or later, by God's will, all the things that we have been dreamed about will come true. Just need to be patient because we are now being tested by Him. Insha'Allah, everything will be fine.......

These are the things that I've always dreamed of...now and then.

Images credit from:
http://ebaritarealty.com/index.php?p=1_2
http://www.cartradeindia.com

Empty Cookie Jar

2009-10-02T11:37:00.004+08:00

It's going to be a 2nd week of Syawal this weekend. Hence, my wife & I didn't have a finalize plan yet to visit family & friends in conjunction of this Raya. Actually, I had some constructive plan which I thought it wouldn't effect much on my pocket, if you know what I mean:P...(pennyless after Raya..hmmm). So I thought to had a visit at my friend house on Saturday at Bandar Tasik Puteri. He has invited me to go there several times, since last 2 years but I didn't take an effort to be there, not even once because it was too far from my place. (As if. What a lame excuse isn't?). I was also thought that on Sunday to visit my sister's friend, somewhere nearby my resident's area, but I haven't contact her yet to inform about it. The thing is that, my wife had to go to work this weekend and also next weekend due to her students exams. So, the only period that she would be free might be at 2pm onwards. Certainly, it would be awkward if I attend those houses just with my daughter & I.
I took a chance these few days to contacted my eldest sister from time to time and asked about my mom's condition. Seems that she's getting better & better and due to a major renovation that being held at our 'kampung' house, it would be slightly inconvenient to have a phone call because of the 'noise projections' here and there, so SMS seemingly the best way to get news update from my eldest sister. Earlier on, I had promised my mom to get a new bedroom set for her because she has been using the same old bed for years. The reason's why she refuse to replace that bed with the new one, because that was the bed that she had shared with my late Abah. That was also the bed that I used to snuggled in between my mom's & Abah. As much as the sweet memories pictured in my head like a film-slide every time I lay on that bed, as much as she misses my Abah everyday. Even though she didn't admit it, but it shows on her face how misery to miss someone's that she had shared all the tenderness love until the death do them apart.
So, until further notice and unanimous result from my wife & I, I wouldn't be sure where would we be this weekend. But one thing for sure, we will be around.

p/s 2nd thought, it must be nice to empty somebody's cookie jar 'till the last crumb.

11 Syawal 1430

2009-09-30T12:12:00.006+08:00

Disebabkan mindaku yang bercelaru ini, aku biarkan sahaja jemariku menaip bahasa ibundaku tanpa menyedari sebenarnya ini adalah entry pertamaku dalam bahasa ibunda :P. (kecelaruan timbul akibat dek terlalu memikirkan rumah yang berharga setengah juta Ringgit itu)
Walaupun sudah memasuki Syawal yang ke-11 hari ini, tapi disebabkan aku & isteri sudah mula bekerja, kami masih lagi tidak berkesempatan untuk bertemu dengan teman2 yang lain. Ada beberapa perkara yang menarik yang ingin aku kongsikan bersama sewaktu aku menyambut Aidilfitri dikampung. Walaupun agak janggal kali ini, kerana tiada sekeping gambar pun dpt dirakam oleh lensa, namun apa yang penting kesihatan mak dah bertambah baik. Disebabkan mak yang merangkap 'Chief-Of-Executive' untuk apa2 jua aktiviti di rumah kali ini, kurang bertenaga untuk beraya dek tidak sihat, maka kami adik-beradik pun rasa tak berapa seronok beraya. Aktiviti menziarahi sanak-saudara pun agak kelam-kabut tahun ini, selalunya semua rumah sudah selesai diziarahi pada hari raya kedua. Tapi, agaknya CEO a.k.a mak tak kuasa nak bising2 tahun ni, jadinya masing2 ambil kesempatan sambil lewa. Kekeke...
Disebabkan kesihatan mak yang terganggu itu juga, ramai sanak-saudara yang datang beraya menerpa mak dulu & bertanya khabar. Ternyata ramai yang masih lagi mengambil berat akan kesihatan mak, Alhamdulillah. Ada banyak perkara yang berlaku sebenarnya Syawal kali ni. Tapi dalam banyak2 perkara itu, ada 4 perkara yang aku takkan lupa sampai bila2....

1) Pagi raya masa sessi bersalam-salaman dengan mak, mak mengusap2 rambut aku seolah2 aku ni anak dia yang masih kecil lagi. Sebelum ni, kalau bersalam2 dengan mak, dia tak pernah nak mengusap rambut aku. Mungkin disebabkan faktor usia aku yang dah tua ni, mak tak buat dah macam tuh. Tapi masa aku kecil2 dulu memanglah selalulah. Dan disebabkan kejadian itu, aku rasa diri aku macam2 budak2 sekolah rendah balik:P
2) Aku kagum dengan abang ipar (abang chik) aku yang duduk Seremban tuh sebab masa takbir raya dekat masjid, dia jadi salah seorang yang penting mengalunkan takbir raya bila dia duduk disaf paling depan. Mikrofon tu asyik dekat dia shj. Kekek..Walaupun kata kak chik aku, suara husband dia tak berlemak sangat ketika mengalunkan takbir, tapi aku bangga semacam jer dengan abang ipar aku tuh :)
3) Abang aku yang ada kereta Mitsubishi VR4 tuh, mengagumkan aku apabila dia memecut dengan lajunya dijalan raya dalam keadaan aku yang seolah2 melatah dek bunyi turbo enjin keretanya yang berdecet2. Dan enjin keretanya akan diOFF secara otomatik selepas dia mencabut kunci kereta. Dia asyik mentertawakan aku & bersungguh2 menyuruh aku beli kereta macam dia jugak. Kekeke
4) Buat kali pertamanya aku dapat membawa isteri & anak perempuanku menziarahi pusara allahyarham abah setelah 6 tahun berkahwin. Sebelum ini ada juga inisiatif untuk membawa mereka, tapi mungkin faktor masa & situasi yang tidak mengizinkan.

Disebabkan kami berdua cuti panjang untuk Syawal kali ni, ada jugak masa kami untuk pergi beraya samada dengan adik-beradik aku mahupun keluarga sebelah mertua. Ternampak juga kepuasan diwajah2 semua orang dek kerana kami meluangkan masa agak lama dikampung. Sebelum ni, seperti kata kawan baik aku, 'raya sececah jer kat kg dah hangat punggung nak balik KL'. Kekekek...

p/s Tak berbincang lagi untuk pergi melawat kawan2 sempena Syawal ni. Tak berani nak berjanji dengan sesiapa pun untuk datang ke rumah. Ada rezeki nanti, kami anak-beranak sampailah agaknya.

----- Aku rindu pulak bulan Ramadan. Moga2 panjang umur lagi untuk sambutnya akan datang. -----

Having a tight arse day

2009-09-15T12:48:00.008+08:00

I was on my bed when I received SMSes from my sisters said that I needed to sent mom's home either today or tomorrow as she requested. Earlier  on the same week, she had been brought to a clinic due to her High BP and swollen left ear. We arrived at my sister's house around 6.45pm together with all the foods that we bought from Pasar Ramadan. And then there  she was sat on the couch without even noticed our arrival. She looked so pale and weak. I grabbed gently her right hand, 'Mak?' Mom? I whispered. She opened her eyes and all I could hear from her mouth was 'sakit kepala' headache. When there was about a time to break fast, I waken her up and invited her to joined us at the dining table. She ate only a half piece of kueh and half glass of soy bean milk. Then she said she couldn't eat anymore. When she rose up from her chair and straight away took a bath, I knew that was the sign for us to get prepared to leave anytime she's ready. Along the way back home, she vomited several times. The next day, I've had asked her not to fasting because she still wasn't be able to put her head straight up and there was no sign of her BP reduce to its normal level. Luckily she listened to me and the next day I thought she would be fine if she straight away consumed her medication given by the doctor earlier, but I was wrong. It really turned to chaos because she wasn't vomited because of the food taken, but she kept vomiting every time she moved her body. Her body became weaken and she couldn't even talk. So, we brought her to a private clinic and being declined due to her bad implication of dehydration, the doctor genuinely advised us to straight away to the hospital. We rushed to the emergency entrance and they brought in my mom with a stretcher. We couldn't go in as the hospital didn't allow us to do that. So, we've waited outside whilst I took the opportunity to text everybody and told them mom's condition.

to be continued  

Contest Tagline Submitted

2009-09-10T14:11:00.002+08:00

I've joined a search contest which needed a new tagline for it's product. There were some options of tagline that I've had come up with by my own but finally with an indirectly intervention by my wife, she had sort it out. But I suppose if I was about to win, the victory would be solely mine..hahahaha (laughing greedily):P.
Whoops! I've forgot to mentioned that yesterday we had our dinner at SR nearby our resident's area. I was about to heading to WM for a Big Apple or so, but due to her feet inability, we decided not to. I had myself a beef lasagna with ice blended mocha espresso while my wife had a bowl of curry noodle together with apple juice. Guess who was the luckiest among all of us? No one but my little princess. She had an ice blended chocolate with a slice of chocolate fudge (too much chocolaty taste:P) + a pair of Naruto hand gloves (very irrelevant to her) + hair band.

Special about 09/09/09

2009-09-09T12:06:00.002+08:00

*credit to Yahoo News
Article written by :

Heather Whipps
Special to LiveScience
LiveScience.com heather Whipps
special To Livescience
livescience.com – Tue Sep 8, 10:46 am ET

Why 09/09/09 Is So Special

Have special plans this 09/09/09?

Everyone from brides and grooms to movie studio execs are celebrating the upcoming calendrical anomaly in their own way.

In Florida, at least one county clerk's office is offering a one-day wedding special for $99.99. The rarity of this Sept. 9 hasn't been lost on the creators of the iPod, who have moved their traditional Tuesday release day to Wednesday to take advantage of the special date. Focus Features is releasing their new film "9," an animated tale about the apocalypse, on the 9th.

Not only does the date look good in marketing promotions, but it also represents the last set of repeating, single-digit dates that we'll see for almost a century (until January 1, 2101), or a millennium (mark your calendars for January 1, 3001), depending on how you want to count it.

Though technically there's nothing special about the symmetrical date, some concerned with the history and meaning of numbers ascribe powerful significance to 09/09/09.

For cultures in which the number nine is lucky, Sept. 9 is anticipated - while others might see the date as an ominous warning.

Math magic

Modern numerologists - who operate outside the realm of real science - believe that mystical significance or vibrations can be assigned to each numeral one through nine, and different combinations of the digits produce tangible results in life depending on their application.

As the final numeral, the number nine holds special rank. It is associated with forgiveness, compassion and success on the positive side as well as arrogance and self-righteousness on the negative, according to numerologists.

Though usually discredited as bogus, numerologists do have a famous predecessor to look to. Pythagoras, the Greek mathematician and father of the famous theorem, is also credited with popularizing numerology in ancient times.

"Pythagoras most of all seems to have honored and advanced the study concerned with numbers, having taken it away from the use of merchants and likening all things to numbers," wrote Aristoxenus, an ancient Greek historian, in the 4th century B.C.

As part of his obsession with numbers both mathematically and divine, and like many mathematicians before and since, Pythagoras noted that nine in particular had many unique properties.

Any grade-schooler could tell you, for example, that the sum of the two-digits resulting from nine multiplied by any other single-digit number will equal nine. So 9x3=27, and 2+7=9.

Multiply nine by any two, three or four-digit number and the sums of those will also break down to nine. For example: 9x62 = 558; 5+5+8=18; 1+8=9.

Sept. 9 also happens to be the 252nd day of the year (2 + 5 +2)...

Loving 9

Both China and Japan have strong feelings about the number nine. Those feelings just happen to be on opposite ends of the spectrum.

The Chinese pulled out all the stops to celebrate their lucky number eight during last year's Summer Olympics, ringing the games in at 8 p.m. on 08/08/08. What many might not realize is that nine comes in second on their list of auspicious digits and is associated with long life, due to how similar its pronunciation is to the local word for long-lasting (eight sounds like wealth).

Historically, ancient Chinese emperors associated themselves closely with the number nine, which appeared prominently in architecture and royal dress, often in the form of nine fearsome dragons. The imperial dynasties were so convinced of the power of the number nine that the palace complex at Beijing's Forbidden City is rumored to have been built with 9,999 rooms.

Japanese emperors would have never worn a robe with nine dragons, however.

In Japanese, the word for nine is a homophone for the word for suffering, so the number is considered highly unlucky - second only to four, which sounds like death.

Many Japanese will go so far as to avoid room numbers including nine at hotels or hospitals, if the building planners haven't already eliminated them altogether.

p/s I might be taking my family out for dinner tonight not it conjunction with this 09/09/09 but more to a fulfillment of a requisition made by my wife this morning. Which I thought it was a good idea thou' :)

Dishes & Old Deeds

2009-09-03T13:47:00.001+08:00

The reddish look of her face shows enough agony that she feels as soon as I approached her that afternoon. I merely had a tongue-tied so I was just starred at her without words and let my eyes do the talking. The traffics were bumper-to-bumper as everybody rushed to get home as early as they could. So do us! It was our daily routine to pass by the Bazaar Ramadan during this fasting month. Whether we going to buy some things to eat or not, that was a second thing! It wasn’t much choices of foods that could be done I supposed. But I guess that I was the one who being choosy on what’s to eat or what’s not. The only person who would enjoy most if we must drop by was my little princess. Not that she such an eaters but what she likes most every time we have to squeeze in ourselves among the crowds was the joyful moment to be carried by me. Despite of letting her walk and stroll by herself, I’d rather carry her so that she won’t be out of my sight. Anything could be happened nowadays because you will never know what kind of danger awaits you. Little girls are among the person who could be kidnapped easily. I always petrified every time I read through some children missing or brutally murdered cases from the newspapers.

So, back to my bazaar Ramadan story. Hence, my little princess always knows what to eat, unlike me, the decision to buy what kind of foods usually being uphold by my wife. Not that we share the same taste, but she likely understand what I do like to have during breaking fast. And of course, a wide range of ‘kuih2x’ always to be treated as our main dishes.

Recently, I have been reunited with some of my long lost high school friends through ‘facebook’. We have planned to conduct a reunion party or so just to keep back on track with the entire ex-classmates. There are so many nostalgic moments that we had shared together whether good or bad.

P/s Gazillion thanks to Kak Farah for the souvenirs. Thanks a lot sista’…

Fasting Experience

2009-09-02T16:12:00.003+08:00

I'm really having a great time this round of Ramadhan where I could perform my Terawih at the mosque nearby or sometimes recite Quran at home even though there are still some unfinished business here and there especially when it comes to my contents update. By hook or by cook, this week I have target that at least the contents database will increase its population growth at least 20% from the actual plan. Na ah...I was just joking about the statistics..But I do need to enlarge the library. Who else might to do it except me? Hmm...
Anyhow, I've encountered my parents pic when they were young. Sweet isn't? :)

My Nocturnal Neighbor P2

2009-09-02T14:09:00.004+08:00

As I was mentioned earlier, there were some things gotta do with those guys who used to come in and out. But as much as I despise their attitude especially when it comes to the enraging sounds of their bikes, as much as I wish they would gone forever. But unfortunately, I just wish for what I wish. By the time I wrote this, they still staying at that house. The different is just that, the sliding door glass had been broken by one of them who had quarreled with his partner. It happened on the day we went back to our hometown due to Merdeka's & Ramadhan 'break-fast' celebrations. And the fighting continued (obviously) on the day of Merdeka's not too long after we've reached to our home, my wife was the first person who'd heard their arguments (around 3am) and another sound of the broken glass again, shouted and screamed, bitch slapped or whatsoever. I'm not trying to say that my wife and I are the saint, as if we haven't had a fight before. But the thing is that, why they don't think about us, the neighbors who pretty much 'alive & kicking' and by screaming and beating like a mad dog at that hour, definitely it weren't just us who could hear it, I bet other neighbors nearby also could hear all the vulgar words. Because of they had a fight and created such a loud noise, ended up my wife & I couldn't sleep at all until the morning and proceed to our mundane chores at the office with a complete package such as swollen eyes, heartache and of course terrible headache.

My Nocturnal Neighbor P1

2009-08-27T16:06:00.002+08:00

There was a newly wed couple moved to our residence area few months ago. The rented house used to live by a huge family which could be considered as our closed friends. We used to exchange fruits when it comes to fruits season, especially when I brought it back from my home town or like wise. So, it becomes tradition and having them to be one of our neighbors, was pretty much overrated because they used to be our eyes and ears every time we went back to our hometown during weekends. So does the favors that we return to them. The comradeship that we’ve had, nonetheless had spread to the other neighbors. As much as they enjoyed our presence, we also enjoyed to be in their community. It is hard to find this kind of community who really helpful to each other regardless to its races. This peaceful ambience somehow or rather, has attracted us to stay here longer then we could imagine.

So, when that huge family that we have known for almost a year moved out, and this newly wed couple moved in, we were hoping that they won’t be annoyed by the friendliness that we have portrayed to the community. And luckily, they also adore the scenarios even they, themselves seldom socialized with the community and us. But at least, we know that they could blend in easily every time we received their warmth greetings to us and others.

But when the wife was transferred to the eastern part of Malaysia, then the husband started to bring home his cousin or friends and then this is the part where you could see the circle started to grew up bigger and bigger. Finally the house had turned out to be a bachelors headquarters’ to all of them and you could never be as suspicious as I am because every time people came in, no matter how many of them, they will remained to be inside the house with the door locked and sometimes with the lights off. Sometimes you could see different faces came in and out, as late as 2am or even 4am. What would be more suspicious was when the wife returned home for a couple of days, those guys would be invisible and right after the wife left, those hustlers appeared from every where. It just like a polarized magnetic bar with a switch ON/OFF that could attract all of the steels sticks to it. So I said to myself, there must be something inside the house that was so important to them or else why would they be bothered to come in?

To be continued

Few entries unpublish..

2009-08-26T14:36:00.002+08:00

Seems that I have a lot of entries to be published but due to some circumstances, I must put it aside temporary. Meanwhile, just to make sure that I myself don't forget about it, some gist of the stories won't do me any harm. Let's put it this way:

- I was about to narrate a story from my observations towards the nocturnal neighbor, not that I'm being fussy but enough said that it was suffocated.
- I was about to share my fasting experience and where did I see myself this Ramadhan every time I had undergone my Terawih

That's all I could think of at the moment.

My Story Submission to RDAsia

2009-08-21T15:18:00.005+08:00

I have just submitted my previous article about my late father to RDAsia. Even though I'm not confident enough about the level of accuracy of my grammar and strongly believed that there were some grammatical errors here and there, but the authenticity of the article that I had written and the thoughts that I had towards my late father somehow had made me driven. I'd personally leave behind all doubts and pretty much undaunted at the moment. And I will not be bothered should there be any condemn.
I'm taking this opportunity as well to wish all the Muslim bloggers/readers, 'Salam Ramadhan' and may this Ramadhan brings us a step nearer to The Almighty...Insha'Allah.

2009-08-20T11:40:00.001+08:00

I made this widget at MyFlashFetish.com.

The legacy of my late Abah

2009-08-20T09:01:00.001+08:00

It has been 22 years since my father had left all of us. The thinking that I had towards him so forceful in fact very memorable, as the Ramadan approaches. The epitome of being the youngest in the family was indescribable because I did usually get everything that I requested for. He was very strict and always had a bamboo stick on the desk every time he taught me to recite ‘Muqaddam’ (a basic book for a beginner to understand Surah, read and pronounce the Arabic words before proceed to Quran) or vetted my homework’s. He wasn’t talked much but when he did, as if the entire world listened to him. He used to bring me everywhere or anytime that possible, or as a matter of fact, he would be dreadful if he didn’t because I could cry or sulk all day long and created a huge mess if I was being left alone. So, I merely get to know all his best friends whether from a breakfast at Mamak’s or the visited that we did to his friends’ house. Even though he was well-known as a bold and solemn-face person, they have never been a stressful scenarios or serious interventions between all of them, but as far as I’m concern, everybody was delighted and honored when my father was around. I have been seen so many people from different cultures came into our small residence and seek for his consultations about everything i.e. religions, politics or even family issues. And he always delivered all the knowledge and his thoughts at the utmost. He became friends with all kind of people, Chinese or Indian, you name it! And most of the time, again, as the youngest, when those people who have seen me, will automatically praised and said how lucky I was to have a father like him. It was just like a moving label and being recognized easily at my age, somehow or rather, had given me some privileges. I could get huge discount when I shopped at some groceries store or even get sweets for free-of-charge. Kindly salutations always filled the air every time when people bumped into him, anytime and anywhere. I used to follow him to the ‘Gelanggang Silat’ at night where my father taught a ‘Silat Selendang Merah’ lesson to all his students.

At home, when I was overslept in front of the television, he would carry me up to the bedroom. I slept with him and my mother at the center of the bed and always being snuggled either by both of them. Even though he was very strict to all of us as his children, there were teasing and funny times as well. I’ve remembered there was one time when my mother was coincidentally sleeping on the chair, he would asked me to get a feather and started to tease my mother’s nose slowly. And when my mother gets shocked and awake, we both will laugh out loud and I will show a sign to my father so that I won’t be scolded by her. When I was too drawn up watching the television program, he purposely threw a cushion at my head and pretended it wasn’t him who did it as soon as I turn my head up to him. But the most unforgettable moment that I had with him was when he beaten me up at my back with a bamboo stick for disobeyed the line that he had drawn. He was taking a nap at the living hall on his favorite couch after he fetched my sister and I from school. And then, we started to play copying some Chinese characters from a tin can that we got. We didn’t realize that we have made such a loud noise and interrupted him. He warned us once, and then we slow down a bit. But then, our filthy voices polluted the air again until we could hear his second warning. It turned to be horrible soon after when my sister said that the tin can belongs to her and we fought. Suddenly, my father got up from his couch and with a bamboo stick in his hands, he had beaten us up. We both cried and ran to the back at the kitchen and that was where we spent out the whole afternoon. That night, without having guts to watch a television or even set our feet in the living hall, and of course I took blame on my sister for what had happened, suddenly I’ve heard my name being called by my father. He ordered me to come in front once and for all. He asked me to take my shirt off and sat in front of him. And then he said delicately, ‘Next time when Abah asked you to be quiet, you must listen! Don’t make me angry anymore. It doesn’t mean that I don’t love you, but I wanted you to be disciplined and obedient’. By the time he said that, my tears ran down all over my cheeks. I could feel the pain when he rubs my back with the sea cucumber oil.

During Ramadan, my father used to recite Quran in our house, everyday without failed. I could hear his voice phrase all the Surah completed with Taranum either after we had our Sahur or even at night. I felt so secured and every time he cleared his throat, I know that he was there to protect all of us until one morning on 22/11/1987, he was passed away. I’ve remembered exactly what had happened that morning. My father was at the hospital, together with my mother and one of my sisters. Due to his pneumonia he had been admitted several times. There was one of our relatives just came back from the hospital and told us that our father had gone forever. I was nearly passed out and couldn’t believe what I heard. I have cried and screamed ‘No! No! No!’ My aunt tried to hug but I was struggled myself and ran as fast as I could to the paddy field. I couldn’t accept the fact that my beloved father had left me alone, left all of us without even saying goodbye. There would be no more laughter, no more joyous moment that used to complete my life. By the time his corpse arrived, it was placed at the living hall. I was sitting at his side and stared at his chest. I’ve told my sister that our father was just sleeping and still breathe. When my father was covered with white clothes, I couldn’t stop my tears from busted out, in front of all the people who came to pay their last respect to my father, my sisters dragged me into the room, and said firmly ‘Wipe your tears now! Even though Abah is gone, but his spirit still here and see what’s happening? We have to let him go peacefully! Pray for him, that will do!’ There were many people also shared our grieved as well on that day. By far or near, they came just to bid a farewell to my father as he was laid to rest.

I will never forget everything that he has told me. The love and tenderness that he had showered us, the good etiquette that he had shown, will always come along with my conquest as a husband to my wife and a father to my little princess.

Al - Fatihah…..

The mountain is just a metaphor..

2009-08-18T09:06:00.003+08:00

I certainly don’t have any idea what to write. I suppose that I am having a crucial moment of my life. The mountain yet too far to reach at its highest peak, while shoulders hard with rucksack and hands are full with compass and map – so that the obligations that I need to fulfill. I have been submerged with contents updates at the same time stuck up with the monthly reports that need to be compiled for a submission. Somehow I realize the intensity that hanging in the air as if I’m being subdued by the power of time. The feeling so peculiar but as far as I’m concern, there’s no one would offer their hands because everybody has their own tasks and they won’t be bothered by me either.

Comparing myself to a mount climber with his rucksack, in a journey to conquer the mountain and have to cross the thick forest and equip himself with a navigator. I am the mount climber, the mountain is my goal, the navigator is my skills, the forest is my daily path and of course the heavy rucksack is my duty and responsibility.

I’m wondering why recently my schedule not as cohesive as before. Does it because I’ve been trapped into this blogsphere and being hooked up with it? Does it because my hands tied up with those unique and different services that need my own preferences to update the contents as frequent as I could? Or does it because I’m getting melted with the mundane chores that seemingly no appreciation by he-who-shall-not-be-named? The truth is that I’m lost in my own devotions. Sometimes I do feel downgraded and dishonored when compared to others. But I’ve remembered my ex- peer used to say that he didn’t do his jobs to satisfy others but he did his jobs for his own satisfactions. And when he left us long ago, I do remember his philosophy behind all these. I’ve remembered as well by the time he stated his remarks, I was blurred and hard to digested all his words, but now, I do understand why he did say that. The wisdom that he had given has inspired me to look for better chances. And this coming Ramadhan Al – Mubarak, I would use all the chances that I might get by pray harder and change my mind setting for a brighter future. It’s time for me to break a leg and nurture what’s best for me.

Finding a silver lining..

2009-08-17T11:50:00.006+08:00

My confidence has been badly shaken as soon as I realized that my little princess caught the fever again. We’ve met the pediatrician that have had given the prescriptions to my little princess earlier. My heart was furiously pounding until at one time I’ve become so numb and hopeless because my mind kept thinking that something wasn’t right and wondered why my little princess still haven’t fully recovered. But soon after the pediatrician claimed that it was just a normal fever, I felt so relieved and thank God to that. The pediatrician also consulted us that when my little princess had the diarrhea due to the Amoxicillin 250mg/5ml oral suspension B.P was a norm reflection and it wasn’t actually an allergy. I have been notified as well that my little princess will only consume to Sporidex 250mg in future or whenever she needs it.

  Soon after I’ve had sent my wife and my little princess home, I went off to work. Somehow or rather, these lately I felt that my daily routine at work was nothing more than a mess. There were several times I felt that I wasn’t pull out all the stop enough but merely to ensure that I have some money in hands at the end of the month. Maybe because I’ve been stick to this place for the past consecutive years yet there are lot of things that I need to accomplish. I love what I’m doing right now and never loose all the sparks that I need yet. I always consult myself that there always a silver lining even though I personally could not resist the proverb which is the grass is always greener on the other side. I always adore those people who could stay in one place, doing the same thing for years without thinking of leaving their current situation. But for me, loyalty is not the main criteria that some employer’s looking for. And I believe the loyalty that I have was never good enough here. But after all, I have never put hatred ahead of me every time I walk in here. There are millions excuses that anyone’s could think of why I still endeavor to deliver all my tasks at their best. One of the reasons that I must say is the relationship that we have among the staff. I would say that the bonding that develops between all of us is phenomenal. Everybody is so open undoubtedly until let you walk in into their own lives as well. Of course if there were secrets, you have to keep it to yourself, affirmatively. You could even know what’s what with them either they personally share with you or you ask them more or less. The beauty behind all of these was that we were actually come from different races and religions. But neither I nor they see that as a frontier yet we could still treat ourselves as close as siblings. We could even share our foods together or going out to lunch together. These are among the best colleagues that I have met so far I must say.

I've been tagged by Kak Farah

2009-08-13T14:24:00.004+08:00

Write five (5) interesting facts about the person who gave you this award.

Jot down ten (10) interesting facts about yourself or your hobbies.

Pick your ten (10) most deserving recipients and describe them.Leave a comment on the recipients' blog to tell them they've been tagged

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Apparently, I've been tagged by Kak Farah. Whole my life, this is the first time I have response to this kind of game ( I supposed?:P). So fasten your seat belt and let's begin.......

5 interesting facts about Kak Farah

- she has a lovely voice that could melt your heart away either when she sings Dato' Siti songs or when she converses through phone. There was one time, when she got angry with one of our staff, then suddenly the office phone rang, her voice automatically twisted from anger-to-a-lover. Yeahh!! It's fact. kekeek
- She has a bunch of high heels (err..ladies shoes? I don't know) that I would say defines her as what she is. If you have a chance, try to peep at her high heels. If it has a very long so called muzzle (the longer the better) and its sharp, that's her! Kekeke..
- She has this one kind of phobia. She is very uncompromisable towards all kinds of maggot. Kekeke
- She has all the great qualities that you look for in a friend. She can consult you when you are having a bad day, always a good listener, ambitious and realistic. But having said that, there are some times when she thinks too much until it makes herself too carried away. This is the part where we could console her back. Kekekeek...
- She is a humorous type of person. When she makes a joke, you would definitely find yourself suddenly crawling on the floor and laugh out loud because it is damn hilarious. Sometimes her imagination runs wild and you could hear she delivers all kinds of probabilities. Kekekeke

10 interesting facts about me

- I'm obsess with all kinds of gadgets - electronics e.g. mobile phone, laptop, etc
- I'm a family type of man. Always thinking about my wife & my little princess
- I like to hangout at the mamak stall with my wife & my little princess. I have never get bored with the 'air tongkat ali' and 2 half-boiled eggs and also 'roti pisang'.
- I always passionate about creative writings - contents management. I used to have a so-called blog where I junked in all my writings in Bahasa Malaysia.
- I always believe my observations towards something & by observing people's behavior (not being judgmental)could mature my thoughts as well & made myself see something from different prespectives
- I always adore my friends and wish I could separate myself into many pieces so that they could bring me together with them where ever they go. Does it make sense? Kekeke
- I love my wife so much no matter what it takes to be with her. Even though sometimes when we suddenly pick up a fight regardless to whose fault it is, I usually condemn myself as a husband first before I nail down the situation
- I always quoted this to myself or others " You have to control the situation! Don't let the situation controls you" but I myself sometimes fail to do so. Hmmm...
- Sometimes I could be a selfish prick when it comes to my possessiveness towards an object or something that I like.
- I always trying to fulfill others need despite of fulfilling my own. And when people see that as my weakness point, usually they will take an advantage on me. So, ended up those people and me are no longer be friend. 

10 most deserving recipients

- Kak Farah : because she's the one who drag me into this...wakakaka
- Dek Na : She's the same age with me & damn..she can cook! kekeke
- Dek Ika : She's the one who made myself feel like a 10 years younger, just by reading her blog
- Kak Long : because she's the oldest among us. Kekekek...Wisely! Indeed :)
- Kak Nita : She's the one who could talk well, cook well & laugh well...kekeke

These are among the people that I could think right now...Those silent readers, if you don't mind, help yourself to complete this questions tag..TQ

Think Big Dream Big

2009-08-13T13:50:00.003+08:00

It is a cozy night after the rain. I’m freezing until I can hear my bones rattle. The rain has stop but I could still hear water drops apparently like a rhyme to my soul and by all means, my mind scattered like debris all over the place. I lay on the couch by myself while my wife and my little princess have gone to sleep. Somehow or rather, this couch and I seems like having a chemistry or connection. Feeling discomfort, I’m hopelessly force myself to get up and make myself a drink. The television is ON but neither I nor the television realizes our presence as my eyes keep blinking and as if I’m looking for something missing. I always blink my eyes when I think of something. I take a sip from my cup of coffee and sit on the couch again. It took a while for me switch ON my laptop as if I’m being glued to the couch. I seem lost in my own world, lost until I don’t know how to put it into words. And then out of no where, I realize that I was actually dreaming about lots of things that perpetually got to do with my own future.

When talking about dreams, I believe everyone has their own dreams. You don’t have to be a well-off person or a corporate figure in order to have a dream. It’s the only thing that doesn’t involve money at all. I’ve remembered when I was a child that I wanted to be a doctor so that I could cure all the sickness in the world or even a policeman as a second choice because I was so drawn with the crime and justice television series at that time. But since I didn’t have a brain to be a doctor or physically fit to be a policeman, those dreams faded away. As I grown up, I have occupied myself with a solid technical background which led me to what I am right now. But having said that, I have never satisfied with all the learning processes that I’ve thought would be never enough to fulfill my eagerness. It doesn’t mean that I’m too greedy and never feel grateful with all the opportunities that I have had before. I’m still in love with all the books and never put a full stop on my study. But due to some circumstances, I have to give ways to my wife to pursue her dreams which means that anytime from now she’ll be back to school. I know some might say that it doesn’t a big deal, we both could study part time at the same time, it just about a time management or so. The thing is that, we both don’t want to be too busy until there’s no one to be beside our little princess. As for my little princess, at her age, she’s in the middle of learning about everything. And it has to be someone that could shower her with all the knowledge that she needs, giving her non-stop guidance about what’s what, and the most important is someone has to be at her side all the time and monitor her developments. I’ve remembered when I was studying part time at a local university where I was so busy with all the acts and study cases, my hands were tied up with books and assignments, I was merely neglected my little princess physically and emotionally when there were several times I declined her enticement to play along with me. It made her so broken hearted. Personally, I don’t want to break her heart again and leave her alone by herself is the last thing I would do.

Its quarter past three, I’m barely sleeping as if my mind still heavy with all kinds of thoughtfulness and plans. Whatever it takes, I will never stop dreaming and will always put myself on a correct path just to make sure that one day I could still pursue my dream no matter in what cost. Dream to challenge myself to be at the greatest and furthest in education.

P/s Do you know that a male cuttlefish use its fingers to hold its sperm as soon as it being extracted and put it into the female mouth? That’s how they mate.

As the days gone by and the time stood still....

2009-08-12T14:12:00.003+08:00

Several years ago, or to be précised, after I got married with my wife, we both had practice this kind of multi celebrations for each important dates that involve both of us and our little princess as well. It started with my wife birthday followed by our wedding anniversary on February. And it goes down to my birthday which is on July and our little princess on the following month. We have this pre & post celebrations which normally include several items that mainly would be cake or something sweets that can be eaten. If you could see in my previous entries, it shows that we already had birthday celebrations for our little princess, twice. And yesterday, 11/08 was actually her birthday and since we, Malaysian were all pretty much succumbed to this H1N1 virus, the truly birthday celebration of hers just took place at home. I’ve bought some junk foods and a box of chocolate ice-cream. My little princess was so delightful because she hasn’t had an ice crème such a long time. It’s not that we don’t allow her to eat an ice- cream, just that due to the tonsillitis and fever that she caught up recently, we need to ensure that she is as healthy as a horse before she eats it. And yes, she does. I believe that no matter how fancy your birthday celebrations would be or how expensive it costs, as long as you are there to spend the whole period with her, and vividly express your excitement towards her big day, that's the only that matters the most. And the joyous moments that pictured in my mind was priceless.

Can you spot the not?

2009-08-11T11:36:00.007+08:00

Tentatively, we are suppose to do some overhaul with our living hall or even the whole house because of our little princess allergy towards those furry thingy but due to some unexpected occurrences, the riddance of those furry stuffs were only happened last night. I got home before 9pm & saw my little princess was busy with her Monster Inc show at Disney channel. As my wife pretty much chaos to relocate the furniture’s, I have decided to give her a hand. I put down my bag & went straight to the kitchen & awarded myself a pail of floor detergent & mopped the entire living hall. Whilst my little girl created her own mess with paper-cutting & thrown it on the floor, my wife took the chance to sat down & watched the compilation videos that I brought home for her BC subject. Sometimes I don’t understand her passion. She is so passionate about her teaching materials and always has a lot of ideas on how to impart those stuffs to her students. Sometimes her dedications seems to overwhelming her until it makes me feel abandon (Hehe…as if) by her spirit because she is too driven when it comes to work. But having said that, I don’t proclaim that she doesn’t do her best at home just that her perfectionism at work sometimes (Yes. I said sometimes) doesn’t reflect at home. Sometimes it makes me feel so irritated when she seems too depend on me even on petty things. Those questions such as ‘Did you see my glasses?’ or even ‘Did you know where I put down my brooch?’ always polluting the air until I could feel an extraordinary movement of my own adrenalin. These are the among the imperfection characteristics that I have to face down day by day. But whether I realize or not, anyhow, those imperfections are actually made her so perfect to me and as long as I can deal with it, nothing can stop my love to her. People said that love could make someone’s blinds and I am proudly to be one of them.

Our weekend's agenda & the strike of H1N1

2009-08-10T14:26:00.004+08:00

On Saturday. we had brought our little girl to the same clinic again in order to get another prescriptions of her medicine. It was actually due to the diarrhea that she have gotten soon after she consumed the antibiotic - xxxxcylin. So, after being diagnosed by the doctor, it seems that my little girl had one kind of allergy towards that type of antibiotic and it has been substituted with another kind of antibiotic as referred to her prescriptions history. Earlier, we had received a bad news from my wife's principle that the college will be officially closed for one week due to 2 H1N1 cases that happened to be to one of the staff & a toddler at the nursery. Initially, we were panicked & the only thing that we could imagine was to brought our little girl for screening test of H1N1 because apparently, my little girl also came from the same nursery. But as soon as the doctor said that our little girl had no fever & it was just an allergy to that kind of antibiotic, we felt so relieved & pray to God that she will recover as soon as possible. Again we had bought another Ben10 birthday cake for our little girl as she requested. It was just some sort of encouragement for her because as I mentioned earlier in my previous entries, she had sometimes reluctant to take her medication. Luckily, there was no Hana Montana birthday cake by the time she approached the fridge inside that bakery, or else we would be totally petrified because she definitely will ask for both. Hmm..
Anyhow, we discovered new thing of her allergy towards that antibiotic. I will take note on that forever & suddenly it reminds me of Kak Nita who had advised me to always be alert on what's the contents of the medicine. It was a laid back weekend as all of us spent most of the time by watching DVD's and also didn't go out much.
We pray that all of the persons who had infected by H1N1 will recover soon & hope that this disease will vanish so that everybody gets their life's back. So do we.....

Another obsessions of her own..

2009-08-07T11:47:00.004+08:00

My little girl not feeling well these few days. She's now resting at home with my wife. So, yesterday when I went back home, I've bought her a DVD - Hana Montana The Movie as I knew that she was so into it especially at the theme song of the movie itself. It was so amazing to saw her jumped on her feet even she wasn't that well-recovered yet from the tonsillitis, as soon as she had the DVD on her hands. Sometimes I feel that it would be much more easier to be the one who get the tonsillitis, fever or whatever sickness that she caught up rather than seeing her into that conditions because she sometimes had a problem with her own medication. I assumed that not all children like to take their medicine no matter how sweat the taste of its. That's why we always have a plan A & B every time we have to feed her with her medicine. Plan A is more gently & full of persuasions. If it doesn't work, then the plan B usually contains a bit forceful act but I'm telling you, it never does any harm to her.
So, since she likes the theme song of Hana Montana The Movie so much, we could hear she's humming all the time & the feeling of Mama Mia movie songs became faded away bit by bit. But we'll see how long she could stand to it....

The Climb : Miley Cyrus - Hana Montana The Movie

I can almost see it.
that dream I'm dreaming, but
there's a voice inside of my head, tellin'
you'll never reach it
every step I'm takin'
every move I make
feels lost in no direction,
my faith is shakin'
but I gotta keep tryin'
gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
always gonna be an uphill battle
sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
ain't about how fast I get there
ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
it's a climb

The struggles I'm facing
the changes I'm taking
sometimes they knock me down, but
no I'm not breaking
I may not know where, but
these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
just keep pushing on, but

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
always gonna be an uphill battle
sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
ain't about how fast I get there
ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
it's a climb

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
always gonna be an uphill battle
sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
ain't about how fast I get there
ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
it's a climb

Keep on movin'
keep climbin'
keep faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
the climb
keep the faith, keep your faith, woah

Melancholic.....

2009-08-06T11:43:00.004+08:00

I was strolling around as soon as I walked into the office, not that I don't have errands to be taken care of but the feeling of melancholic seemingly terrorized me out of no where. It took me few minutes to clawed back all my previous entries which I've had made at some websites, just to remember back such a wonderful feeling of being a father as soon as my little girl was born. To be franked, one of my sisters is expecting another baby & a close friend of mine also at the same pace. Just that, my wife & I, still don't have the luck yet to add another member in the family. It doesn't mean that I despise my life. In a contrary, I do cherish every single moment that we had right now. With my little girl presence in our life, and also the endless love that showering by my wife, all we had to do is pray to The Almighty & do everything that could be done.

These were all that I have written in my other blog.......

The Arrival Of My Little Bundle Of Joy P1

Today my baby is 9 months old. 3H for her: healthy, handsome and hyperactive. Months ago, we had gained a lot of experiences that needed us (my adorable wife and I) pulled out all the stops to ensured that everything at the right place as it should be. We have observed her positive development from day 1 until today, yet more to come. As the bond of a parent tightened, something that I couldn’t forget was the feeling that I had in a labor room, 9 months ago. We’ve registered at GH that late afternoon after being consulted by local maternity clinic due to her high BP. After had few routine checkups, finally the contractions that she had before more frequent as expected. It was a huge labor room and contains a few cubicles inside. Each one of it has it’s own bed. Doctor put my wife in a first cubicle completed with necessary equipment to support the labor process. That was where we both pleasantly heard our baby’s heartbeat through one of the machine. Whilst my wife struggled with her labor pains, all I could do was held her hands, wiped the sweat off and calmed her down. Gladly, she didn’t whined. I wish that I could feel the pains as well as after I realized that the malfunction of Epidural. It took hours until doctor said that she couldn’t have the typical vaginal birth due to slow progress of our baby. So, she had to have C- Section. It also means that she had to be inside the operation theatre without me regardless to all the labor room staff.
Emotionally distracted, I ran downstairs and called my best buddy and cried out loud on the phone. Psychologically, she easily soothed my hopeless agitated mind, based from her first-time experience as a mother. Luckily she had experienced about this. I owed you one, sis. I went up after that and waited- hopelessly and willingly.

The Arrival Of My Little Bundle Of Joy P2

After struggled alone for a few excruciating hours, I finally made my moved to the labor room entrance and asked one of the nurses about my wife. At last, they said that everything went well, my infant (little princess) has been put in the infants room while my wife still inside the operation theatre and has to be kept in an 'intensive room' to monitored her BP. So, the nurse led me to my princess and that was where I had my first time touching her delicate skin. I couldn't describe how stunning she was the moment I saw her enjoying her aloneness 'outside the womb'. I've asked the nurse whether I could hold her and she allowed me to 'Iqamah' at her left ear. As soon as I touched her tiny fragile feet, she greeted me with her sparkling eyes and made a short glance. I was stunned by her acted, as if she had known me before, as if she knew that we both belong to each other - and she didn't cry at all. The feeling was so exquisite and thankful to God for this heaven gift. After awhile created a father- daughter bonding, I made a moved to my car and drove back with her 'thing' to be buried. Couldn't wait to see my mother and spread the news - born of my precious milestone's. And that was how it begun - life as a father after being and yet still as a devoted husband to my lovely wife. Thank you 'sayang' for giving me such and adorable human being. Our journey have a long way to go together with this bittersweet chocolate that make our lives meaningful day by day. So, I guess.....let's get prepared with the other one:D

Shiny & gloomy days..at the same time.

2009-08-05T12:58:00.008+08:00

I've just recovered from a disastrous fever which made me felt so excruciating whether I was a victim of H1N1 or even suspected from it. Luckily, it was just a normal fever & thanks to my Ugly Betty DVD collections (la la la la la)...my days gone by with all the laughter than a sick person could get. I am still wondering when could I get the chance to meet my adorable yet squeeze-sh friend who way back then had promise me to shower my possessive feeling towards a download of DH which I may or may not have. Hmm.....It just a matter of time, the sooner the better. But having said that, I would not certainly jeopardize those guys health conditions when we meet up just because I thought I have completely recovered from a fever. I will see them when I'm ready and perhaps I could hold back all the intentions to have a DH collection..indeed.
My family & I went back to my mom's place last weekend not for a double but triple birthday celebrations which involved my little girl, my eldest niece & me. It was terrifying by the time we reached at home by 9pm because my mom was expecting all of us to reached earlier. She just made a sulked-face which made me felt so guilty to let her waiting at no expense. But then, after I made some persuasion, she finally smiled & we started to laugh again. Thanks to my lucky charming..hik3x. Earlier, we had bought 2 birthday cakes..and guess who was the childish among us? Me. hik3x. My little girl birthday suppose to be on August 11th, but my wife & I, we had decided to celebrates together. My siblings were all there with their children, so you could imagine how beautiful the scenarios would be with their presence. Unfortunately, my sister who stayed at Subang has gone back earlier that morning due to some chores of her husband, so we felt a bit devastated because she couldn't join in.

Hectic Days..

2009-07-31T12:12:00.004+08:00

I was extremely busy these days with some technical documentations. Yesterday, was a disaster when I overslept on my couch at home & woke up in the middle of the night only for a few minutes, then went back to sleep again..I thought I could manage to stay up soon after I had my drinks, but the temptation to laid on my back, on the cozy bed with my wife & my little girl was much more stronger than I expected. So eermm...I guess last night mission was to complete a transition from couch to bed. Huhuhu...

My Birthday Present..

2009-07-29T11:31:00.003+08:00

I have bought myself a Philips DVD player with HDMI and USB - DVP5996K, HDMI 1080p DiVx Ultra Karaoke, which only costs me RM319. The actual price was RM399. At first I wanted to buy a home theater set but maybe the urges wasn't that strong, so at least this player would be fine - at least to satisfied my complexity desire of possessing some gadgets - at this moment. Kekekeke...I was planning to buy another media player but let's put one thing at a time first. The rest can wait...
Guess what? The karaoke function is some sort of a self-preparatory to participate in 'Jangan Lupa Lirik'..kekekek. Naaa..Just kidding :)

Happy Birthday to me...

2009-07-28T09:55:00.007+08:00

How time flies so fast without you even noticed it...unwillingly & hopelessly. There are so many things that suddenly busted out in my mind, subconsciously. Lots of things to be done in my life & I just need to ensure that that the path in front of me is the one that I should be heading to - undoubtedly. For the past 32 years, I have been surrounded with all the love that I could possibly get in the entire world. Let’s start with the one that responsible who brought me into this world - my adorable mom. When my father passed away, I was 10 at that time, too naive & always depend on her to do everything for me. But as a single mother & full time housewife, she never failed to fulfill all that I need. I used to cycle to school with my sister every morning. And when the school sessions end, I’d rather be with my friends took a long way home – cycled through the palm oil estate where usually we had to pass through a Chinese house with uncompromised & totally fierce dogs. We felt so joyous when we got barked by those dogs & cycled as fast as we could. There were few times that I fell off from my bicycle & dirtied my clothes. It made my mom so annoyed because she had to wash my clothes & inspected me if I had bruises or so. When I was at secondary school, I’ve became rebellious teen & always denied every advices that my mom had given for my own sake. And everytime she had tears on her cheeks because of me, I used to ask for her forgiveness & hugged her as tight as I could. But then, I did it again & again & again. But no matter how bad I am, or how huge my mistake would be, she never failed to shower me with all the love & advice me for not doing these & that. when I was at the boarding school, my mind always think of her at home. I barely sleep at night & always thought that the idea to go to the boarding school, just to get rid of her nagging so that I could be free with my friends was the stupidest idea that I have ever made of. My heart became torn apart everytime I saw my friends got visited by their parents during weekend. I could simply put all the hatred at my best especially when I saw a father-son/daughter bonded because I personally didn’t get enough of father’s love & had lost it when I was still young. My mom also without failed consoled me when I told her about what I felt & these scenarios keep on going until I realized that having her by my side through out those years made me so lucky and grateful to Allah s.w.t. for created such a noble & honor person; which is my mom. Thanks mom for never regret to educate & made me to become a better person; as what I am right now.

As my birthday gift, I am dying to get few gadgets for myself. A new set of branded DVD player with USB and/or any supported memory cards together with HDMI and/or Ext HDD. I was aiming to get a complete home theater but that wasn’t a prior anymore I guess. I have received a birthday kissed from my wife last night when the clock strikes 12 and also a birthday song from my little girl on our bed. How beautiful my life will be as long as we have the power of three :)

Browsing Weekends P2

2009-07-27T12:07:00.008+08:00

Soon after we dealt with our devastation & gloominess, we headed to a shopping mall nearby & bought ourselves, generally; a new cage for our existing hamster named Boy. He became so enormous until he couldn't fit in his own nest a.k.a hiding place inside the existing cage. Hence, we had found a new one for him, we also bought another 3 petite hamsters as his companions or cellmates ( sounds like partners-in-crime) Hak3x...At first, we thought that Boy might not going to like it or be friend with those new guys. But we were damned wrong..Boy was totally delighted & could except those troops very well. It costs us few hundred bucks & not to forget some accessories which I thought it was ridiculous at the first place. But since Tisya's felt so excited & we could see her joyful face towards her new possessive thingy, all the uneasy feelings that we had earlier seemingly gone away by the wind. Kekekee...

Browsing weekends P1

2009-07-27T09:36:00.003+08:00

Saturday : As I've mentioned earlier in my previous entry, we had a parent meeting (report's card day) that morning at Tisya's school. We managed to had a heart-to-heart session with Tisya's teacher due to her mischievous and lack of focus when she was at school. By the time we read through the reports, both of us kind of devastated with her overall grades. Even though they were merely A's & B's grades for all the subjects taken by her, but we were broken hearted with the commentaries made by the each subjects teachers. Tisya's hardly focused every time when the teacher's taught during the classes. She was very determined when she said NO. If she were moody or in a sensitive mode, every little things that the teacher's asked, she wont be bothered to answered it. She barely sat at one place at a time & could get bored easily if the scenarios weren't at her best interests. My wife took the blame on herself as she claimed that was exactly her attitude & it was inherited from her. To be franked, my little girl just had a slightly issue with her focus & I certainly didn't think to blame her at all. My little girl is a brilliant, hyperactive & could well-adapt with the learning stuffs, just that she could easily get bored & too mischievous. But having said that, it doesn't mean that I wasn't believe what the teachers had comment on her, they were great & always imparted the information at their best. Just that, maybe both of us, as a parent needed to put more disciplines on her & put more attentions on every little things that she did. After we wrapped up the meeting with the teachers, it took a while for both of us to be mourned inside our car. By looking at Tisya's face, deep in my heart, I'd rather took all the blame on myself ; personally for not too spend more time with her. I should know how to teach her at home, attract her attentions with all the books that we bought for her since she was a baby, read all the books to her everytime when she asked me to, despite of facing my own tiredness when I reached at home after work. I should do this, I should do that. I don't want my little girl felt too comfort with her attitude right now which seemingly not a good one to brag. I should tell her some do's & don't. If i wasn't the one who draw the line, then who else should I rely on. My wife already had too much responsibilities on her shoulders, and I guess it's time for me put 110% efforts on my little girl if I wanted her to be at her best. I precisely don't want her to be left out in this fast-pace world. I should be ready to equipped her with all the things that she needs to know. Now, I've remembered what my mom used to tell me 'Bukan senang nak menjaga & mendidik anak. Itu yang mak dah buat & bila dah besar, terpulang kepada kau, bagaimana nak menjaga diri sendiri' - It wasnt an easy job to take care & educate a child. But that was what I did & when you've grown up, it's totally depends on you, how to take care of yourself...
For my readers, thank you so much for reading these. I'd be much appreciated if you have suggestions for me on how to develop my little girl attentions at school.

Not just another day to be filled..

2009-07-24T08:55:00.002+08:00

I was pretty much annoyed by last minute briefing that was held yesterday by my colleague that we had to do the product testing early than what we expected. But somehow or rather, since I have no choice this morning, I have to drag my butt early & get myself well-prepared for the meeting.
On the other hands, I can't hardly wait for this weekend occasion. We are suppose to be at Tisya's school tomorrow for parents meeting, then we might head up to Klang Valley for some fun. On Sunday, I have a seminar to attend at PWTC...Hmmm

First Attempt

2009-07-23T10:59:00.002+08:00

I've never thought to add up another activity in my crucial to-do-list which I assume it is too crappy. Luckily blogger is not a profession but it just a temperamental sensation if I may say :)